I Promise (Jun / OC / Ohno) Ch 14
A/N: Kay~ Sorry for not updating for 2 days. The net here sucks.. =_= the good part is, My exams are over! But sad news is, my net has to be repaired, so, I might not be updating for a week, please don’t scream in agony. But, you are welcome to throw stones at me. Till then, enjoy Chapter 14
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Chapter 14
Yuu-chan POV
Satoshi was quiet on the way home. He didn’t let go of my hand. His grip was so strong, I wondered, was he mad at me? The walk home was quiet. Terribly quiet. I don’t like it. Was he thinking? Is he mad..? Then, he let my hand go and turned to me. I looked up at him, waiting for him so say something.
“What were you doing?”
“I was worried so I-”
“How did you find me?”
“I expected you to be-”
“Why the hell did you come?!” The sudden raised in his voice made me feel like sinking into the ground. I was just to scared to answer him.
“Yuu-chan, why did you come?!” He raised his voice.
“B-because I-”
“Why on earth did you bug in between Jun and I?!!”
“I-I I didn‘t want to see you get hu-”
[SLAP]
I was speechless. I’ve never thought, in my whole entire life, he’d slap me. I guess, I deserved it. But, why can’t I hate him for that? I can never be mad at him for what ever reason there is. No matter how much it hurts, or how much he makes me cry, I can never hate him. I remained looking down not wanting to look at him. He let out a frustrating breath.
“Do you have any idea how dangerous it was? Jun would have seriously hurt you! Especially on what you said and what I said. He can‘t control his emotions yet Yuu-chan! He‘s not that strong to accept it yet! He was in shock for god sakes!!!” Satoshi yelled at me, he raised his hand as if he wanted to slap me again but held back.
“I didn‘t want to see you get hurt..” I said softly, my voice cracked between words, I was fighting my tears from trickling down my cheek.
“DAMN GOD!!! Do you have any idea how worried I was?! What if he bled you?!” He massaged his temple and sighed frustratingly.
Like I said, I can never be mad at him. Because, behind his actions, he cares.
“Gomen..” I said.
The both of us remained silent. Was he still mad or unsatisfied with me? I gripped my hand so hard, I wanted to kick myself.
“Yuu-chan…” he held my hand gently. “I‘m not mad at you… you just got me worried.” I nodded silently in return still fighting my tears. He pulled my hand, “Let‘s go home ne?” He asked. “Un..” I replied.
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“Itaai..” Satoshi moaned. I smiled at him as I applied medicine on his wound. “Lift your shirt a little, let me look at that bruise..” I narrowed my eyes. “Look at my bruise or my body?” Satoshi teased, I couldn’t help but to blush. “Oi! I didn‘t mean it that way baka!!” I threw a pillow at him. “Hai..hai… Shheshh… I was just.. AHHH!!!” Satoshi nearly yelled as I dapped a little bit of medicine on his wound.
“Baby..” I teased. He replied with a pout. Then, he suddenly looked at me seriously. “What?” I turned to look at him. “Yuu-chan.. You know.. About what happened earlier.. At breakfast..” his voiced softened at every word. I blushed at the same time crushed. It came back, when he kissed me and left. The pain wouldn’t go away.. I ignored the question and kept on applying medicine on his wound.
He sighed. “Yuu-chan.. I‘m sorry… I didn‘t mean for it to go that far. It‘s just that-”
“Just that I look like her.” I cut him off.
“Yuu-chan.. I didn‘t want it to sound that way..”
“Then, how was it supposed to sound Satoshi? Tell me!”
“I-I… it‘s just that you..”
“Remind you a lot of Yuuka? What? You thought that Yuuka said “I love you” to you that morning?? You thought that it was Yuuka that you were kissing? Or maybe you thought it was Yuuka you we‘re on bed with? But, No, it was me, so you stopped and walked way. Why? Because I was NOT Yuuka right?!” I nearly yelled, I couldn’t hide away my pain. I want him to know how much I am in pain and it’s not just him.
He gave me his sympathy and pity eyes.
“Don‘t look at me like that!!” I slapped him. “I don‘t want your Pity Satoshi!”
“Yuu-chan..” He called softly.
“Yuu-chan?! Which Yuu-chan? Tell me? Me? Or Yuuka?! Tell me Satoshi, why did you suddenly start calling me Yuu-chan when all this while, when she was still alive, you called me Yuu-kun?! Now, she‘s dead, and you start calling me Yuu-chan why? Is it to reassure you that Yuuka will always be there for you?! You had always called Yuuka, Yuu-chan right?!”
“Yuu..” He was stuck at his words. I thought so, all I’ve said was true..
“You have always see me as Yuuka, haven‘t you? All this while. I was never Yuuki, but Yuuka right?”
“You‘re taking this the wrong way..” He managed to say.
“WRONG? Tell me where am I wrong?! Tell me?!! All this while, to you, Yuuka was alive and she has been next to you right? And me, I‘ve been dead right? Heartless and dead down in the grave am I right?” My tears starting falling after the last few words.
“Yuuki..” He held my hand but I pulled away.
“Oh great, I‘m Yuuki now? What happened to Yuu-chan? To scared to use it after I knew why you called me that?”
“That‘s not it.”
“Then, what’s it? Tell me! Or I’ll never understand! Is what ever I said wrong?! I dare you to look me in the eyes and tell me that everything I said was wrong Satoshi! Tell me it was wrong!” I pulled his shirt as I rested my head on his chest. “Tell..me…” I looked up at him.
“Yuu-kun, I can‘t love you.” He finally said it, those painful words. He looked away leaving me speechless. I gripped his shirt in my hands . I pulled him to me as I pressed my lips on his. I kissed him , kissed him hard.
“Why can‘t you love me, as much as you love her?!” I finally said it. The words I wanted to say for a long time.
“Yuu-chan…” was all he said after that, then he gave me those pitiful eyes.
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