it gets better. it still hurts sometimes, but not as much as it ever did before. each time it hurts a little less. but i feel like the pain is good, its good to see them happier without you, because it hurts you enough to keep you going. it hurts less and less each time. slowly you forget how it felt to be happy with them, you create new memories ( Read more... )

Drove up to hillside manor sometime after two a.m. and talked a little while about the year.
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower, makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her.
And its been a long december and theres reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last.

Thought I'd cry for you forever ( Read more... )

so as most of you midwesterners know, it snowed a shit ton over the past couple of days. and i'd just like to share that yesterday before i could make the short treck to work in my champagne colored saturn bby i had to shovel about three feet of snow off of it with two spatculas. awful. got covered in snow, lost feeling in my fingers. terrible time ( Read more... )

let me just say that having your septum pierced and having a terrible case of the sniffles / can't even breathe via your nose is probably the worst thing possible. in case you were at all curious.

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so, i've decided that i am now okay with my entries no longer being friends only. i figure i have nothing to hide really, not that i ever update ( Read more... )

I can be a very good girl -- just not when it comes to things like this. You think I'm gonna let you rock my world with just one kiss, one really good kiss. We could stand here til I say let's go, but you say wait. But I don't wanna put my heart through the windshield just to watch it break. We try to stop as if we can. We know we gotta, know we ( Read more... )

Poke at my iris, why can't I cry about this ( Read more... )

she worried way too much what people thought of her, wore her heart on her sleeve, expected too much from people, and got hurt too easily. she kept other peoples secrets like a champ, but told her own too fast. she expected the world not to cheat her, and was always surprised when it did.