lost fic: i see flashing lights in the distance, and i'm guessing it's not god.
i see flashing lights in the distance, and i'm guessing it's not god.
lost. pg
spoilers for season four
sayid takes a vow of revenge in the quiet aftermath on the deck. when walt appears at locke's camp, asking where is father is, no one says a word.
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desmond falls to the ground on his knees, executed military style at the hands of the captain and sayid only has time to turn around before he realizes what just took place.
they throw the body overboard, one more for the sea to conceal.
he asks why in a hurried accent and the captain only responds, orders.
(later, he watches the same tape that ben shows locke and finds that it's penny's father who orders the execution. something along the lines of you'll never be good enough for my daughter.)
sayid takes a vow of revenge in the quiet aftermath on the deck. michael is his first kill with a sharpened blade grazed against the soft flesh of the throat. (he is a traitor after all-- not once, but twice) the coagulated blood sprays into the air, staining everything it touches, while michael's last words (and maybe the only ones they ever heard from him) is the strangled version of his son's name mixed with a lack of blood flow and asphyxiation. sayid finds that it feels no more disturbing than killing from a list of names, and ben promises that walt will be kept in good hands.
as the helicopter touches down on the island, jack asks where is desmond and sayid doesn't say a word.
when walt appears at locke's camp, asking where is father is, no one says a word.
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john locke begins negotiations at supper on a wednesday. the group has dinner together after jacob finally tells them where to find the cows and what the next course of action will be. because, you know, they've been waiting on some kind of plan for days now. ben stutters over, did it have a number on its side? but then furrows his brow and decides not to pursue those types of questions any more.
hurley doesn't think he likes living under a dictatorship, remembering how his high school teacher always said that communism is bad (and he never writes his sevens with a dash across the middle. its un-american, you know.) he tries to tell the group he's leaving, but is interrupted by an explosion from the boat house on the beach. locke shakes his head and says, well i guess that's that, and isn't sure whether he has helped or hurt his friends' attempt to get off the island.
claire joins hurley and a couple others on the walk to the beach. they all agree that locke has started to go crazy, and aaron hasn't been able to sleep through the nights. they don't talk about the crows and the insects picking apart pieces of flesh from the trees as they pass by.
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no one ever trusted charlotte.
juliet dies on a friday, fingerprints bruised on her neck and her eyes wide open, paused in a moment of terror.
they weren't sure whether or not to dig a grave on the beach, as she never was on the flight so how could she be rescued? but jack insists, no-- she's a person and she wanted to go home so badly, forgetting about all the other lives they've buried on the island. sayid gets upset, visits shannon's grave, and they find the battered body of charlotte in the woods three days later.
hurley, claire and the others arrive on the beach as the funeral is ending, and all they hear is the disbelief of-- dude.
jack cries that night. kate pretends not to see.
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sawyer sneaks to the beach one night.
his aim is to convince kate to come back with him, or to see if she is willing to let him stay with her. he sees a helicopter and tilts his head, mutters well isn't that just dandy and spots his lady from the shadows entering a tent. he follows, and immediately backtracks toward the cabins after seeing her half naked body caressing the skin of another man. he makes eye contact with the doctor, squints in frustration, and then in pity, for jack is no longer able to feel any connection and is completely numb of any affection.
he never sees either of them again.
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apparently, ben is sort of a genius.
he manipulates his way to be one of the oceanic six, saying his name is bernard and his wife drowned in the ocean, too weak from the cancer to fight against the waves. the pilot doesn't recognize him and takes him on board, along with claire and aaron, hurley, jack, kate, sayid, sun and jin. they're the first to leave the island, the only ones to ever leave, as when the helicopter lands back on the ship, someone destroys the transmission and they don't have enough fuel to stay out at sea.
the captain greets them when they land, eyes going wide at the sight of ben and dies from a gunshot wound to the chest. the doctor is next, not jack-- but the queer man with glasses, because he recognizes the photo of benjamin linus as well.
he negotiates a bargain: your friends will stay alive if you do as i say, and well, everyone is so tired from fighting when they're so close to being rescued. kate attempts to smother ben in his sleep, but sayid is standing charge outside his door. "i'm sorry, but it's what i have to do," and kate contemplates whether all the humanity has left from his dark skinned body.
claire gets cabin fever and throws herself off the ship near the coast of florida.
her body gets tangled with the rudders and leaves a trail of dark red behind the ship as it passes. aaron cries, his diaper wet and stomach hungry. ben tells jack, you're next of kin, which of course he doesn't understand and doesn't want to. somehow, he should have saved her-- should have saved them all. so kate takes the baby and ben tells her, he's yours.
pregnant and on the run. what a fugitive, what a trial. he gives her a wink, half a laugh-- oh come on now, they'll be forced to take pity on you. you'll never stay a night behind bars. well, it's almost right.
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ben slips away before the cameras and crowds can catch him. i'll be in contact is his warning, and jack never lives a day without hearing that unbearably maddening voice in his head. he's convinced that evil people really do exist, and tries to go back to medicine-- back to playing god and healing lives. jack is addicted to helping people, (eventually to alcohol just like his father) and it’s what brings him back to kate in the end.
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jin is first on the list.
"he works for a powerful man," ben tells sayid. "that's all you need to know."
sun never knows who murdered her husband; sayid never shows up to the baby shower. kate sends a card and presents, with love from kate and aaron, but never mentions the fact that she can't leave california. jack calls her when he's in japan, but can't stay on the line because his flight is boarding back to l.a. sun doesn't ask what he's doing flying across the ocean like that.
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on the island, sawyer catches fish.
locke changes his bed sheets.
in the distance, a crate of food and supplies is dropped from the sky. they'll find it in the jungle, eventually.
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