Appointments Post

[offallingsnow]

Have an appointment with the Governor, do you? Don't forget the date and the post type (action, voice, dance, etc.)!

Comments

[soreplaceable]

Thank you, Nephry.

[And that's the last message Nephry will get...]

[Until the night of the 15th. Should Nephry check her journal, she'll see that a filter had been put up once more, but the text inside had all been crossed out.]

[offallingsnow]

[Hm? All those crossed out words...what did he want to say?]

Did you need something, Ion?

[soreplaceable]

No
I don't kn

[The words are crossed out just enough to be legible if you squint.]

How is Anise doing?

[offallingsnow]

[Does he really want to know?]

She seems to be worried, despite reassurances that nothing happened to you.

[soreplaceable]

[Well, there's a reason his first attempt to ask was crossed out, after all.]

I sent her a message telling her I'm all right. I don't know if she was able to read it tonight.

[Since this was after she sent him multiple anguished ones. That goes unwritten.]

[offallingsnow]

Do you think she will believe you?

[There's so much evidence that he's not all right, after all.]

[soreplaceable]

[The most compelling being that he really isn't.]

I hope she does.

[offallingsnow]

[a noticeable pause]

Would you believe her?

[soreplaceable]

[...]

No.

I don't know what else I can do.

[offallingsnow]

What else you can do...in what way? For her?

[soreplaceable]

Yes. I want to fix this, but I don't know h I'm not sure I ca

[The whole thing gets scratched out after a minute or so.]

I'm the reason she's unhappy. I wish I could take back what I said, but I can't.

[offallingsnow]

Why do you want to take it back? Is it not true?

[soreplaceable]

If knowing is only going to hurt her, I'd rather she not know.

[There's a small, "selfish" part of him that doesn't believe that. It was that small selfish part that made him tell her in the first place, and that same selfish part that's making him feel these painful emotions he's so used to just locking away.]

[It's selfish, doing something just for yourself... that's how Ion sees it. For someone usually so selfless, it's no wonder he's so conflicted.]

[offallingsnow]

[But it wasn't just for himself. The best outcome would have been a good thing for both of them, wouldn't it?]

So you would rather keep the truth to yourself, and suffer quietly, and chance that she might never know instead?

[soreplaceable]

If it would mean her happiness. [There's a notable hesitance between these lines. He's sure, but he's also unsure.] Yes.

[He would suffer for her happiness, but could she really be happy if she knew he was suffering?]

[offallingsnow]

I don't think you really believe that about lying to make someone happy, Ion. Particularly in your specific instance.