Bad News

[of_little_note]

I have not updated in a long time. I am sorry about that, I have been busy. My work load at work has gone from 6 hours a week to 30 hours a week and something had to give... I do try to read, but I haven't time to compose

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[visgoth]

Your entire family has my condolences. I won't go into the story here, but I attempted suicide once, and now I am astounded that I ever thought of putting that kind of pain on the people who loved me.

I know that nothing I can say will change your family's pain, but I hope that my personal experience lets you know that my sympathy for your family is sincere and heartfelt.

[of_little_note]

Thank you.

Talk

[force_of_will]

My mother killed herself when I was 12. She was a depressive, most likely with seasonal affective disorder. She should have been in the prime of her life...

Anyway, the event is now my little demon. And a few years ago I was diagnosed with type one diabetes. Hmmm. It does not make for a bright future and already I can see some similar story looming.

What you have, what you can cling to, is that the man lived a full life. He did his part, and time and disease were going to tear him apart soon enough. I think that makes a difference...and I've had to think about it a lot.

Don't dwell on the end. Just remember the full long life that he did have.

take care
Will

Re: Talk

[of_little_note]

Thank you. My wife and I looked through all of our photographs for pictures my Father. We could only find one picture of him with my Son. Whenever I look at that picture I want to cry.

Maybe time will cure my pain, but my Father will never fish with my son or see him play T-Ball let alone see him graduate from High School and I find that very tragic. My son cries and tells me he wants to see Grandpa. My son deserved better than this.

[megthelegend]

::gapes::

Holy fucking crap.

I am SO sorry.

::hugs the hell outta you::

[of_little_note]

Thank you.

[jfargo]

I am so very sorry for your loss, just, sorry.

[of_little_note]

Thank you.

[a_poets_justice]

My aunt killed herself not too long after she gave birth to my cousin. I was too young at the time to have known her, or known the loss, but now I can't help but wonder what my aunt would've be like. All the pictures I've seen of her say she was really pretty, and I know my uncle still hasn't gotten over her.

I know it's nowhere near as terrible as having your father leave you...but...I guess this is more a commentary on "don't do it" for anyone poking around here.

You'll have people missing you that you never even knew.

[of_little_note]

I agree. Even people who you don't know or weren't born yet will wonder, "What if?" The circle of pain is ever growing...