more than the melucretiasheartOctober 8 2008, 22:02:57 UTC
"my dominant focus WANTS to be on something besides myself."
That's an excellent sign that you've matured to a new level of experience humanistically. That's really exciting, but more-- it points to a readiness to slide easily into a new pattern of thought. No struggle required! Bonus! =^D
I agree that self-obsession leads too often to depression. I mean think about it: if you're always in need of improvement, then the you that exists NOW must, of necessity, be defective. Anyone would get tired of fighting the "defective" label, wouldn't they? It gets fucking exhausting.
If the goal is to be EFFECTIVE, EFFICIENT, and PROGRESSIVE, then you'll need to look outside yourself to get beyond the spiral of mirrors. You need to engage the world as it is in order to know how to meet it halfway in the Healthy 3 fashion. =^)
Re: more than the meodyssey_boldOctober 9 2008, 03:07:28 UTC
"EFFECTIVE, EFFICIENT, and PROGRESSIVE"
OOH SHINY *GLOMP*
lol. These qualities are still incredibly attractive to me. But not just in me but also in processes around me. And that fascination can be put to good use, i.e. my mission statement. As of deciding I find a new level of attraction and diminished stress toward my society-related lectures and essays, which feels weird and very good.
""my dominant focus WANTS to be on something besides myself."
That's an excellent sign that you've matured to a new level of experience humanistically. That's really exciting, but more-- it points to a readiness to slide easily into a new pattern of thought. No struggle required! Bonus! =^D"Good point... It's honestly pretty weird to find myself thoroughly *bored* by myself. "Myself" meaning me-focused personal development projects. I'm essentially still completing my switch from odyssey_spirit. The energy's not wanting to flow to me-projects, which is frustrating until I notice that unlike in depression, it's PUSHING to flow somewhere
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Re: more than the melucretiasheartOctober 9 2008, 17:42:05 UTC
You're welcome! =^)
It was utter boredom with my own self-obsessive depression that ultimately catapulted me into a whole new pattern of thinking-behavior years ago. The initial motives behind it may be different, but it sounds like this particular psychological switching point worked the same for the both of us. I guess we can't stand being stuck in a rut, eh? =^D
Re: more than the meodyssey_boldOctober 9 2008, 23:50:04 UTC
The rut can't stand being stuck with us. We get too high-maintenance and the rut gets overwhelmed and gives out. It moves on to easier, less demanding victims.
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That's an excellent sign that you've matured to a new level of experience humanistically. That's really exciting, but more-- it points to a readiness to slide easily into a new pattern of thought. No struggle required! Bonus! =^D
I agree that self-obsession leads too often to depression. I mean think about it: if you're always in need of improvement, then the you that exists NOW must, of necessity, be defective. Anyone would get tired of fighting the "defective" label, wouldn't they? It gets fucking exhausting.
If the goal is to be EFFECTIVE, EFFICIENT, and PROGRESSIVE, then you'll need to look outside yourself to get beyond the spiral of mirrors. You need to engage the world as it is in order to know how to meet it halfway in the Healthy 3 fashion. =^)
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OOH SHINY *GLOMP*
lol. These qualities are still incredibly attractive to me. But not just in me but also in processes around me. And that fascination can be put to good use, i.e. my mission statement. As of deciding I find a new level of attraction and diminished stress toward my society-related lectures and essays, which feels weird and very good.
""my dominant focus WANTS to be on something besides myself."
That's an excellent sign that you've matured to a new level of experience humanistically. That's really exciting, but more-- it points to a readiness to slide easily into a new pattern of thought. No struggle required! Bonus! =^D"Good point... It's honestly pretty weird to find myself thoroughly *bored* by myself. "Myself" meaning me-focused personal development projects. I'm essentially still completing my switch from odyssey_spirit. The energy's not wanting to flow to me-projects, which is frustrating until I notice that unlike in depression, it's PUSHING to flow somewhere ( ... )
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It was utter boredom with my own self-obsessive depression that ultimately catapulted me into a whole new pattern of thinking-behavior years ago. The initial motives behind it may be different, but it sounds like this particular psychological switching point worked the same for the both of us. I guess we can't stand being stuck in a rut, eh? =^D
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