So we moved into our new place this week. Its amazing. Ive been having one of the best weeks of my life, even though its been crazy tiring due to all the work we've been putting into the house. It's just been nonstop 8-4 sometimes 8-6 at work, then i come home and work on the house til i pass out. Its been sweet tho. THAT IS until my parents ( Read more... )

the only thing ive gotten out of college so far has been an enormous feeling of worthlessness

i wish i could have something else to write about other than my petty troubles but i find it hard to enjoy anything anymore

I feel like i am stuck here. I dont know what i can do to change my life for the better. I am bored and I am alone, finding that i have no one to talk to or relate with. Almost a year ago i moved over 2,100 miles, left my established life behind just to be here. And now... i dunno i mean i definitely dont want to go back or anything like that, ( Read more... )

i am not a rock
please dont lean on me
the ebb of time seems to do nothing more than erode everything in its path

at least this way i dont have to share

if nothing else, at some point, everyone will let you down

Everything in this world leads back to survival of the fittest. Society, the economy, the environment, and even religion are all tied back to the concept that only the ones that have something that they provide that no one else can that is needed by their surroundings truly survive. If i have learned anything from my 20 years here its that ( Read more... )

played first show with the band tonight
went fairly well
but
now i still struggle to sleep feeling worthless

If this attempt doesnt work out i dont know what im gonna do with myself. Even tho it may not be the end of the world it sure as hell will feel like it. or maybe itll work out i dunno. its been too long for me to have any confidence in anything tho

Jealousy is a bitch

i dont remember what happened after caves last night but i might have just gone to bed

but ya
fuck man the same old shit is gonna eat me alive

go watch http://youtube.com/watch?v=1cihg_qqRds if u havent yet