I said the same things to myself during my divorce.. that I should have finished college, should have gotten a career instead of doing my own thing..
It's our choices that make us who we are.. ( Dumbledore said that) I also believe completely that no matter how much we plan life still happens in - a happenstance way.
Ive decided that all we really need to do is just the best we can. But that's it, no excuses balls to the wall best we can.
Im sorry about your grandmother. Her legacy is a good one. You are wonderful, and Im sure she knows that.
Seriously, Alan. It's impossible to miss it, your soul shines right through you. You really are beautiful.
Thank you for the kind works. I think there are so many things in my life I could have done differently but I am pretty pleased with how things have turned out. Then times like this come around and I wish things were just different enough that I could solve the problem. But it's ok, grandma is feeling a little better and hopefully it was just allergies making her lungs flare up, but the doctors said they are shot.
We've managed to plan a trip up there that won't interfere with work or the kids' school. We can rent a car from Advantage for a week for a whopping $137. They give unlimited mileage and don't care if we take it out of state. So that will get us up there, we'll stay with my parents the first night, then drive together out to Pennsylvania and visit for a couple days. That way we can avoid hotel costs. The only thing we would have to do is find a high-speed wireless internet connection so Amy can work from the road. I guess truck stops and Starbucks will have to do for that, since my parents still use dial-up.
Have you called her on the phone, or sent pictures.. or anything yet? Might make you feel better. I know that having your loved ones ill is one of the worst things, but I also know that we all share the experience. Everything is alright and will be alright, it just feels horrible. Appearances don't mean a damn thing, it's how you live that matters. So even if you aren't able to do what you think you should, know that there are more important things.. like what you can do. Loving her and teaching your kids about her as they grow up is more important than flying up there at great expense to your families well being.. and as for your mom, she is going through a lot right now, if she is nasty about anything, just ignore it and do what you think you should, not what she does.
She has pictures, and we called her that following morning and each day since. She's home now, so hopefully that will make her more comfortable, but then I worry that maybe the house IS the problem, maybe there is mold growing somewhere, or the pollen count is high in the back yard. I don't know.
My mom has always been nice and nasty at the same time. I guess there's nothing I can do but smile and nod, right?
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I said the same things to myself during my divorce.. that I should have finished college, should have gotten a career instead of doing my own thing..
It's our choices that make us who we are.. ( Dumbledore said that)
I also believe completely that no matter how much we plan life still happens in - a happenstance way.
Ive decided that all we really need to do is just the best we can.
But that's it, no excuses balls to the wall best we can.
Im sorry about your grandmother. Her legacy is a good one.
You are wonderful, and Im sure she knows that.
Seriously, Alan. It's impossible to miss it, your soul shines right through you. You really are beautiful.
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We've managed to plan a trip up there that won't interfere with work or the kids' school. We can rent a car from Advantage for a week for a whopping $137. They give unlimited mileage and don't care if we take it out of state. So that will get us up there, we'll stay with my parents the first night, then drive together out to Pennsylvania and visit for a couple days. That way we can avoid hotel costs. The only thing we would have to do is find a high-speed wireless internet connection so Amy can work from the road. I guess truck stops and Starbucks will have to do for that, since my parents still use dial-up.
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My mom has always been nice and nasty at the same time. I guess there's nothing I can do but smile and nod, right?
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