new vid - "Cuckoo" - Angel - Lindsey character
Cuckoo
Fandom: Angel
Song/Artist: Cuckoo by I am Kloot
Duration: 3:37 minutes
Summary: Where Lindsey ends and Angel begins.
Spoilers: whole series.
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Click to viewYou stand like a rock on top of the mountain
Run like a river, fall like a fountain
The grass still is growing, the wind still is blowing about you
Reels like a strain, drinks like a scholar
Drown in this town you can feel for one dollar
Since when were you bitten? Where were you smitten?
Cuckoo
Looks like a date, but seems like your brother
Seems like your father, your sister, your mother
Threw out in chains, wildhood and childhood, cuckoo
Drinks like a rogue, looks like no other
Looks like a dream, one you'll discover
Seems like its bitten, whence were you smitten?
Cuckoo
Looks like a saint, drinks like a scholar
Dreams in this town you can buy for one dollar
Whence were you smitten? Where were you bitten?
Cuckoo
Wrench like a chain, looks like no other
Your father, your mother, your sister, your brother
Have all since long gone, all since long gone, cuckoo
Stand like a rock
You stand like a rock
Cuckoo
With every new Angel vid of mine is yet another ineffectual indictment of corporate life. What follows is a particularly personal and wanky rumination on life in a glass tower, so you have been warned. Interestingly, when I was sourcing for this vid I simply couldn't help sourcing tons and tons of Lilah, though she didn't really fit in this particular vid in the end. One day I'll make a vid especially for Lilah Morgan and the glass ceiling. But I digress.
I loved the ambiguity of Lindsey's motivations in seasons 1 and 2, but had great difficulty trying to reconcile it in season 5. I'm still not sure if I can comfortably step between the two, so I just went with the show's justification in the end: why does Angel get everything that Lindsey tried for, for barely a fraction of effort? Or: it's not that he didn't put in effort per se; but rather the fact that his effort wasn't geared toward making it to the top of W&H. His motivations in that sense weren't pure, not in the way that Lindsey's were once upon a time. He's the cuckoo that steals the nest egg. (Thanks to littleheaven70 for pointing that out. ;) )
From Angel's perspective, it comes back to how evil actually works. It creeps up on you and it shapes you to its design, all the while keeping you blind to the fact. Here as in life, it's not really about enabling a big corporate evil as though something like that even exists as a tangible thing. The glass towers are there because they keep the wheels turning; the real evil about them is how they quietly suck away your soul one day at a time, and you never realise that it's gone.
Maybe it was easy for Angel to draw the line between good and evil because he had Lindsey as a benchmark; once Lindsey left, there was no longer anything standing between one and the other. Did Angel become Lindsey because of that, or does everyone just come out of the machine exactly the same in the end, regardless of their intentions going in? I know I used to wear argyle sweater-vests for the healthy sense of irony. Now I just wear argyle sweater-vests.
My personal intention wasn't a slash vid, though as with most of my vids I welcome it to be read as such. ;D