pirates, lesbians, and possible rapists

[nyyyy]

The modeling gig was last night. It kind of occurred to me at the last minute that I was setting myself up to be raped and murdered, in that I was taking a bus to a big city an hour away to meet a strange guy and take off my clothing for him in a private space for money (to all those who don't know, I'm an art model, not an escort girl

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[verseau130]

When I first met you I thought you were a lesbian too. But when I found out you weren't, for some reason you were more awesome. Did that sound homophobic? I didn't mean it THAT way...wtf am I saying, I'm falling asleep. Anyway I used to want to be bi when I was in like 9th and 10th grade, but then I gave up because it was clear that I not only am very attracted to males but that I am not attracted to females, and not only THAT but I don't even get along with girls that well. I guess I didn't get along with guys well back then either, but that's cuz they were all jerks. I know you really wanted to know all of this.

Anf because girls are so much easier to be with, because you know you at least have SOME common ground, somewhere. You both have the same genitalia (presumably) and that's something.

Haha...heh...

[nyyyy]

.When I first met you I thought you were a lesbian too. But when I found out you weren't, for some reason you were more awesome. Did that sound homophobic?
i understand, and no offense taken. i always like it when people are different than I expect them to be.
i guess i was always destined to have a very ambiguous gender and sexuality. i've been a tom boy my whole life. i might as well just come to terms with it, having dealt with it for about 15 years

[verseau130]

Yeah it's cool, I mean, I used to be more of a tomboy, then suddenly I got like really feminine. O_O I think hair has something to do with it. Seriously, when I had short hair I was much more of a tomboy. Then I grew my hair. And got girly, somehow. Sometimes I still feel like an androgynous/feminine guy more than a woman tho. But I'm more and more of a woman (but I still gotta have all my androgynous guy heroes in my comics of course).

Ambiguity rocks. I wish I could kiss a girl someday, but like every girl I've liked is either straight or like, my best friend, who despite claiming bisexuality, doesn't seem to show much interest in women (including me). And I'm too shy to initiate anything (thank God for guys) *sigh*

Good luck being a pirate hostess. This year I'm going to have a cool Halloween costume, not a nonexistant one like last time, so I'm going to throw myself into it and actually go to a *gasp* party. Or we should all have a Halloween party, cuz it's also Marlon's birthday and stuff.

[nyyyy]

holy crap, YOU and YOUR HOUSEHOLD throwing a PARTY?
what is the world coming to? it'll be awesome and i can't wait.

i think i really enjoy looking like a paradox, though i'm not sure why. i really enjoyed dressing in super-girly (for me) clothes, for example, when i had a mohawk. currently i'm wearing ripped up jeans, a sin-tight dress, dirty converses, and a pink scarf. see what i mean?

i kind of wish i could have long hair again, but i always end up chopping it off.