feeling like a fat failure makes it very hard to run

[nyecamden]

sorry i'm not going to use many capital letters in this entry: I am using a tiny keyboard.

Comments

[jangles]

Firstly...All runners..no matter how tall, short, fat, thin etc have negative comments made to them. At some point, some idiot is going to shout something nasty at you and you do need to prepare for that. I've been shouted at, spat at and had things thrown at me.

This was ONE bad run..it's gone..concentrate on the next one

[nyecamden]

People often get the wrong end of the stick when I talk about negative self-talk. No-one has shouted something at me whilst running since I was 15. It isn't what people think of me/say or do to me that bothers me, it is the projection of my fears onto to them that is the big issue.

I usually don't run in public, so I need to do some psychological training as well as physical training before I do my three mile Sport Relief run in five weeks.

[jangles]

For years and years I suffered with mild agraphobia...that I go outside alone and run at all, is a miracle in itself.

I used to think bad things would happen to me when I went out..sometimes they did..but most of the time they don't.

You will win if you keep trying

[anonymous]

True, maybe you are running slowly, but then you have to start somewhere.

True, people will look at you, but ignore them. Do your thing and if they keep doing it run somewhere else.

True, some really neanderthal types will probably think 'fat loser' but fuck them.

You have a lot of guts to try to get fitter and it takes even more if the body that you have is slightly outside of the gym bunny norm. As far as I'm concerned this makes you braver and more courageous than the pathetic sad loosers who would mock you.

Hang in there.

[xfinally_free]

*hugs* I have so many feelings of self-shame when I exercise that I don't do it. I admire your willingness to tackle your feelings of shame. =) It's amazing what a shower and writing an LJ entry can do for your mood. I tend to write with a cup of coffee in hand. =)

[nyecamden]

Do you want your comment unscreened? I appreciate it, it sounds like you know what I'm going through.

[cloudwalker_3]

Actually this was me Nye, I just forgot to log-in!

[nyecamden]

No it wasn't! I was replying to an lj-user, not the anonymous comment :p

[ext_58215]

I am sorry you felt that way.

If i ever see someone running and then walking i think, "Perhaps they are doing the CT5K!"

I'm so pleased that you adapted the plan to something suitable without giving up. Well done!

[badasstronaut]

Sometimes I do a bit of running around the campus, but the only time I can do it reasonably happily is in holiday time when there aren't any students around. I know I shouldn't care what anyone thinks. But I do. And that's that.