Contra Dancing
I want to curl up with Ocimum... Get seduced. Have wild sex. Get something to eat. Go dancing. Repeat.
And the other half of my thoughts are consumed with the freaky knowledge that if Paladin had another woman... I'd be a mess.
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Not that I "have" or have "had" Ocimum at this time, but wow that man has an amazing ability to use his fingers. Makes me wonder what he can do with hips, tongue and so on... [sighs wistfully]
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So I met Ocimum in person on the way to the polyamory gathering. Stayed for one night. Then we stayed with him for another two nights on the way to another friend's house where I'm currently writing from.
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Went ContraDancing for the first time (technically second time if you count going around twelve years ago with my mom). Danced with Marvin and loved it. I keep seeing flashes of him dancing in my mind. I dream about it at night.
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Weaving, touching, figuring out the pattern, admiring beauty, expressing feelings in expressions and gestures, flowing with the music, laughing at one's own mistakes...
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...Looking forward to seeing Oryx and Hare later this week. Also nervous. Dreading getting back to work after a week of doing other things. I just want to be artistic, write, touch, connect, wander...
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Thus far Paladin and I have spent about 16 hours of time in traveling via car. I've actually done around 40% of the driving. I'm getting better at things...
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...But still my heart screams with insecurity.