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[notonedrop]

I seem to have gotten very lucky that flood.

It was interesting being human for a bit. I got to taste food! Other than that...I didn't feel any more soul than I--I wasn't expecting that. I was expecting to feel like more. Still, it was nice feeling normal. Very nice.

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[Private]

[empirical_data]

...What was it like? More specifically? What is it like to feel normal?

[Private]

[notonedrop]

It was...well, I could eat whatever I wanted and I didn't feel guilty about it at all, and there were so many different flavors. There was a taste called...sweet. I've heard it referred to before, but I never had it. It's probably a good thing I didn't know at the time that it was a new flavor or that I wouldn't be able to taste it again, or I'd have likely raided the entire kitchen's supply of candy.

I was able to walk around right in front of people and nobody noticed. They saw me, of course, but I didn't draw their attention. I could have lived my entire life in a perfectly normal world, had a wife and children, and I never would have had to be afraid in that body.

I missed being able to sense where things were in the dark, though. I had to turn on so many lights to see. Now I understand why humans always want things so bright, and their hearing is so dull. I suppose it's worth it though, for the tasteWhat surprised me most, though, was that I didn't have any more emotion or any more sense of self than I usually do. That

[Private]

[empirical_data]

I remember when I first activated my emotion chip, I was able to recognize "sweet" as well, but I do not believe it is precisely the same way humans perceive it. I envy you and am glad you experienced it.

I am used to accentuated hearing and sight as well. The Borg Queen replaced one eye with a human one and I found it difficult to focus.

[That last part he's especially interested in.] Sense of self. You mean that you would be... worth more, as a human? That your life and its importance would somehow become more meaningful? [Because that's what he has trouble with.]

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[notonedrop]

Maybe there will be a flood someday that allows you to taste sweet.

I thought I would be worth more, but I didn't really feel like I was any more meaningful or any...more when I was human than when I'm not.

[notonedrop]

Thank you. What were you?

[notonedrop]

A lot of people would have probably been cheering you on if you had.

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[persephonepearl]

You were a very good dancer, Edgar.

Why do you think that being someone else would make you think you have more soul?

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[notonedrop]

I still am.

Because only humans have souls, and I'm only half human.

Private.

[persephonepearl]

But you are on a ship designed to save souls. Does that count for nothing?

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[notonedrop]

I suppose not. I don't know. I might have half a soul. Or a whole one, but I'm still a monster.