Honesty.

[notbamf]

A few entries ago, I made mention of wanting to do a few things and getting them over with. Tonight, I have started doing those things. I have emailed someone and told them something I wanted to say to them. I have finally after all this time deleted the pictures and videos of Cassandra off my phone and off my computer (I kind of welched halfway on

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[notbamf]

I also promise, for those of you who stick around after this, that my future entries will be more along the lines of my Zombipocalypse and Cell Phone Hut guy stories. Those are more fun for both of us, right? :p

Less of this 50/50 "Fun anectdote"/"OMGFeelings" stuff. I'm so schizo.

[numb_kisses]

I'm really happy you got this off your chest. No matter what you think, you don't deserve the pain that you have encountered since these instances. I know it is cliche, but EVERYONE makes mistakes. You know you did something wrong, and you obviously are a good person, because even though these things would seem like "ancient history" to some, it was still eating at you. I hope writing it out helps.

[notbamf]

I HOPE SO, TOO.

My ulcers feel a touch better. THE POWER OF CHRIST IS HEALING ME.

[tiggrchic7]

re: our conversation the other night, I think you were unable to move beyond these things because you felt unresolved. I hope getting this off your chest helps to resolve those issues or at least helps. While I can't condone or respect your actions, I think that you are a better person than you give yourself credit for. Yes, you made mistakes....but it seems to me that you are genuinely sorry for having made them. I can only hope that you will take these experiences and learn from them.

[notbamf]

You can't condone or respect my cheating? Well, clearly YOU'RE the bad person then. :-p

Actually, when I wrote this, I was most worried about offending you, since we're all friends now on IM, and I've been trying to give you advice while deep down, I'm like, Captain Nefarious. :p

[tiggrchic7]

you are not capt nefarious...haha though that is an awesome nickname

[notbamf]

I have been using the word "nefarious" at every turn lately. I HAVE NO IDEA why. It's just fun.

[sensorium]

Everyone makes mistakes--to be honest, when you started this post, I was expecting to be really shocked and horrified, and I really wasn't. Yeah, what you did wasn't great, but I think most people have done worse. The important thing is that you regret it and will do better in the future. The important thing is that you're facing it. I don't really know you very well or comment much here, so I'm not sure how much my opinion is worth, but I don't think less of you.

[notbamf]

Your first sentence makes me think you thought this entry was going to go into "Well, I killed ten men..."

Did i forget to admit that part? DAMN IT. Now I'll have to do this AGAIN.

[neversecondbest]

my assumption is that you'll have an e-mail from me sometime in the next few hours. assuming that i don't go into labor. [which will never happen; i'm going to be pregnant forever. :/]

i have some stuff to say [nothing really "bad"] that i'd rather not say in a public forum at first. if, afterward, you feel like posting/relaying what i say? no big.

::hugs::

[notbamf]

Don't go into labor before emailing me.

But maybe you did! I have no email.

I could be being a jerk, but I really didn't think you'd be too offended by this post. I told Abbey last night, your reaction would probably be "LOL, you're a jerk for letting me feel bad!" Did I underestimate?

You said *hugs*! So maybe not.

[neversecondbest]

not in labor. working on it. work is getting in the way. :(

[notbamf]

I gotted it. :-p

You took this admission a lot better than another ex of mine did who apparently read this and flew off into a faux-rage full of name-calling.

It was crrrzy!