in hospital

[not_my_body]

Hey

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[vanillatea]

ok just found this entry! so you have been in hospital for a while. im so sorry to hear that :(

I completely understand why you would want to get out of there. being in hospital is awful, especially when you feel so uncomfortable about gaining weight.

And without meaning to sound too bold I will say this. You are an amazing person. You are so kind and caring (even if our conversations have been all virtual haha) I know that you have such a loving heart. To be in hospital like you are and to be struggling for as long as you have, I mean, you must be tired of it. I think (and again if I am stepping out of line please say so and ill stop). I think its time to start embracing recovery. I am not telling you to gain X amount of weight or any of that. I am just saying when you go to the ED ward, maybe just listen to what they have to say, cause honestly they all care about you. We all do xxxxx

please stay strong and if you need anything let us know :)

life is for living ~ it can be a beautiful thing ~

[not_my_body]

Thank you hun for caring. It was fine for you to say all of that. Im not ready for recovery yet but my time in ed ward will be to 'trial it'. Kinda like the expression 'fake it til you make it'. I did that last time to a degree and i did like it. But once i left, well, i knew that i wasnt going to keep it up, but for me thats a pretty big step so im just going to go with it. A yr ago i would never have even considered trialing it.
Your a sweetie and thank you again.
Xoxo

[vanillatea]

I am glad youre trailing it :) Ill take that, Id never want to force anything on you

all the best with it and please keep us posted

x

[bluedragonfly95]

I was on the medical ward for two weeks and now I've been on the ed ward two weeks tomorrow! I'm on a nasogastric tube too and no idea what weight I've gained (it's blind). They even sectioned me they have shackled me and held me down I have pulled tubes out and they have shoved them back down they have even shoved medication down me like an animal in a zoo...it's worse then that I feel trapped and like a prisoner to them and my body. I'm ready for home but they say discharge is impossible whilst I'm not eating orally. They must give up eventually I'm just a waste of time space and resources. Give up now I'm just waiting for them to give up to let the last ship sail

[not_my_body]

Sweetie if they are anything like the staff here they wont give up. Your just prolonging your stay.
Take care

[bluedragonfly95]

You're right they have assured me they are NOT giving up at least not anytime soon and if I ever dare mention the fact that they will they tell me "not to threaten us" :/

[not_my_body]

Yeah thats what they are like here too with the girls who think that they can get away with that stuff and think that the nurses will just back down and you will be left to be discharged. It so doesnt work that way. You end up staying for longer.