Comments | nos4a2no9: Rentboy AU Prequel: Something Forgets Us Perfectly (Fraser/OMC, NC-17)

nos4a2no9

Rentboy AU Prequel: Something Forgets Us Perfectly (Fraser/OMC, NC-17)

Dec 01, 2007 09:12

Hey look! It's December! Which means it's no longer November, which means things automatically suck less! So I'm celebrating with finally posting a story I've had sitting on my hard drive since, uh, last April.

Title: Something Forgets Us Perfectly
Author: nos4a2no9
Pairing: Fraser/OMC
Rating: NC-17
Length: 4,481 words
Notes: This piece is sort of a self- ( Read more... )

rentboy au of doom

Comments 60

lehanra December 1 2007, 14:53:51 UTC

Fraser! Rentboy Fraser! Smithbauer! Naked Fraser standing at attention! Angst! *high-pitched noises of glee*

Wait a minute. I don't like reading angst...

I liked this though. Dammit. I hate it when people make me read things that make me sad.

nos4a2no9 December 1 2007, 16:01:27 UTC

Hehehe, I tricked you into it with the enticement of porn! I'll make a note how/when/why that works.

mrs_laugh_track December 1 2007, 15:42:55 UTC

Wow. Fantastic and angstlicious. I love it.

If sex was at all difficult for these men he’d failed them somehow.

This line totally broke my heart because it's just so very Fraser.

nos4a2no9 December 1 2007, 16:00:55 UTC

Thank you! And I think the Fraser-shooting-the-lamp icon is a perfect choice to use in reply. :-)

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nos4a2no9 December 1 2007, 22:48:16 UTC

...this is just about the saddest porn ever

Best. Feedback. Ever. :-) Thanks for such a detailed comment! It was pretty much what I was aiming for, of course - angst and I are inseparable these days, and so I'm glad the sadness and disassociation came through.

And yes! See, I am educating people with my porn. It's an object lesson, really. No flagging here.

(I think I just depressed vast numbers of people with this. *bites lip* Maybe the whole Rentboy AU thing is just a leeetle too angsty? Now I'm worried).

primroseburrows December 4 2007, 20:24:53 UTC

Fraser is not Dief-less and pining on an ice floe, therefore it falls into the Acceptable Angst category. At least for me, anyway. ;)

hyzenthlay26 December 1 2007, 18:46:39 UTC

He had no one to “save” anything for, but if he had...if he had, there would be no miserly partitioning of his body or his soul.

Oh man. The inclusion of lines like this, which so totally inform Fraser's self-enforced disconnexion, just makes this so sad.

At least there is no loss of limb...right?! ;)

nos4a2no9 December 1 2007, 22:53:54 UTC

Oh no! More sadness! But...yes, well, this is a sad sort of story. It does get better with the Rentboy AU, though. There is Ray, who forces Fraser to make a connection. Also there is kissing in the snow, and ice cream, and sex, and love, and a happy ending. This first bit is just to establish that Fraser is a little fucked-up. Anyway, thanks for your comments, and I'm sorry it was so sad. Next time, I'm writing a totally happy story that involves porn and good feelings. And no amputations.

hyzenthlay26 December 2 2007, 06:02:49 UTC

It was very sad. But of course that's a compliment! Also of course, Rentboy Redemption would not be as sweet were my heart not broken first, right? I think that's why I focussed in on that passage, it intimates the chance for change, no matter how hopeless and...I hesitate to say "broken"... intentionally compartmentalised Fraser seems now.

Next time, I'm writing a totally happy story that involves porn and good feelings. And no amputations.

Ooooo! Would this be the one where my little grocier's anecdote might inspire a little?! *claps hands* No loss of limbs, extremities or digits is always a relatively good thing! ;)

keerawa December 1 2007, 20:46:42 UTC

Oh, man, Nos, this is incredible and leaves me desperate for more. What happened to Constable Benton Fraser, to bring him to this place?

Tne conflict between Fraser's memory of, desire for Mark, and the purely professional guidelines he follows, observing and acting for another's pleasure, ouch.

He had no one to “save” anything for, but if he had...if he had, there would be no miserly partitioning of his body or his soul. That made me take a break. Wow. Ow.

And then at the end, when Mark essentially gives up and fucks Fraser for himself before throwing him out. Whew.

I really really really want to read the full story!

nos4a2no9 December 1 2007, 22:58:46 UTC

What happened to Constable Benton Fraser, to bring him to this place?

I'm such a tease, I'm sorry :-) You'll have to wait until, uh, April or May for the answer. *best Ellen Fanshaw voice* "Sorry, sorry!"

But thank you! I'm glad you liked this bit, and that it intrigued you. It's a little tough to nail Fraser as a prostitute in a believable way, and I'm glad the whole disconnection between his feels and his desires and what he sees as his professional "duty" worked okay. Oh Fraser. He is so messed up in this AU.