Fic: Choker

[norwie2010]

Trying to get back to creative writing. Creative writing is not an entirely intellectual process - this is me, trying to work my weird love for Buffy through my emotions. In this piece, i try to get into Spike's head space (a scary place). To successfully do this, I have to find something within me, something that resonates with the theme and

Comments

[coalitiongirl]

Oh wow, this is powerful. Powerful and dark and captures Spike's headspace in a frighteningly real way.

Scary place, indeed! And I'm looking forward to seeing what else you give us now that you're writing again! *g*

[norwie2010]

Oh thanks! I really wanted to get into Spike's head and I'm glad i apparently succeeded.

I'm happy that you think it's powerful - you gave (and still give) me so, so many joyous moments with your fics, I'll never be able to repay you. :)

I don't know how fast I'll be able to write some more (quarterly numbers are looming ATM) and I don't know when/if I'll be able to dare to look into Spike's head again...

...but there are some ideas. :)

[angearia]

This is fantastic!

My favorite bits: Crawling out of her grave in ecstasy all over again. Crawling back into the grave, crawling all over. Him. Her. Heaven. Hell. | Sweat pearled on her skin, mingling with her juices | choking with her | and dying in bliss

So evocative!

[norwie2010]

Oh, Emmie! I never replied to You - bad norwie! But now I'm on vacation and time isn't an issue. :) Thank You for Your praises, i tried to put a lot into very few words (and even some by leaving words out) and I'm glad that You think it is evocative. Because, it is to me, too. :)

(Btw. When will I be able to read something from Your pen, again? I know You just wrote S5 - but, You are so gifted, Your Buffy is my Buffy - write some more, pretty please?)

[angearia]

Aw, thanks for replying! I figured you were busy and I totally understood. :D

I'll say again that the line I quoted is wonderfully constructed and I love it. You should feel proud.

I've actually been feeling motivated to continue that "Lovers Walk" fic I started on tumblr. Did you read that first bit yet? I'm thinking about re-writing the episode sans-Angel. Honestly, I've been thinking about re-writing Season 3 sans-Angel, lol. :P

You are so gifted, Your Buffy is my Buffy

*HUGS*

[norwie2010]

Yes! I've read it! And, You've been taking notes from comic book authors - with the evil (and funny) cliffhangers. ;-)

I would love to read that whole episode - but to whom would Spike direct "his speech" to? (Willow and Xander! Bwahaha!)

And thank You again for your kind words. I actually am proud of these lines (but also a bit humbled that i needed about 3 month to write 300 words... i have this other idea - and a first draft - of "that alley scene" from Spike's POV, but it's too short and i fear i'll need another 3 months to finish it). I try to make every word count and always change stuff around (heh! Just like You with Your comments! Editing Emmie! :)) Like, when i wanted to show at the end of Choker that Spike doesn't want to be William again, that he doesn't want to be reminded of his human past, but still be able to live (or rather die) in a human way. He yearns, but it is all twisted.

[louise39]

He heard the popping of blood vessels, the tearing of skin, the crushing of her windpipe. Just a bit more, and it would be like always. Like he wanted, then. Wanted now, even.

His mind is one scary place!

[norwie2010]

Indeed! And thanks for reading. :) (I have another "Spike's headspace" coming up in a month or so which will be a lot fluffier. Well, as fluffy as soulless Spike gets...)

[kikimay]

This is very powerful and beautifully written. The choking process feels very real through Spike's POV (Which is perfect) and in his mind eros migles with thanatos in the most deliciously vampiric and scary way.