i cant do this anymore...

[northxstar]

so i'm kinda down....ok i'm lying......i'm really down, deep down inside i want to cry....i really miss my mom....my birthday is coming up and she won't even be here to hug me or surprise me or say she loves me....i know she's with me in my heart but i really need her physically...i know she'll come down for my graduation on june 1...but gosh, its

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[xocrimsonregret]

dude...you're not alone. God is always with you and I KNOW that YOU KNOW that. When IS your birthday? I remember last year my bday was horrible...I spent the whole day crying just because I felt so alone. But hey...you'll be alright in the end I know it hurts and it sucks, for the past year I've felt like I didn't even want to exist and I had no idea why I even exist..but then I realized a while back that things can get better. For now I'll just be patient and do what I do. xo...<3

[northxstar]

hey jackie, yeah I know God is always w/ me and you...I just let things get in the way of thinking or really, knowing that...but my bday is april 12....and i dont know why you say "i had no idea why i even exist" cause i know you're a great person jackie, yeah things happend, you prolly hate me....and i'm sorry...i really dont want you to hate me, but having you reply to my lj means a lot, you were the last person i ever thought would care to leave a comment and put some nice words in to help me get through the day...thank you!!!!
<3 God works in mysterious ways...

hey girl...

[xocrimsonregret]

you are SO wrong I don't hate you. lol yeh at first I was a little pissed well A LOT pissed and like I wished I never met you...but I'm so over that and I'm assuming you are too. I mean you better be or else! haha i keed i keed. anyways...hey my birthday is monday...woot i wanna get my lip pierced we'll see. Anyways...<3

Re: hey girl...

[northxstar]

hey, hehe i never hated you, i just let it all go...hey so your bday is this monday? thats awesome! your gonna be 18? i'll be 18 too (if thats how old you'll be) but hey its nice talking to you again, i know you're a great person and i hope all is well in your life! :) <3

HEy

[ladyrocket2004]

Don't worry I know that it must be hard with your mom not here. just try and make the best of it. When is your birthday but the way??? i hope u can be happy and celevrate the day of your birth because i know that your mom will be celebrating it and that she is happy that she bore u! I hope this helps a little. TALk TO YOU LATER!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Nikki

Re: HEy

[northxstar]

aw nikki, thanks for the inspirering words, it really made my day better thanks girl! just know i'm here for you too! not like some people....
love yah! take care, and my bday is april 12...byeee :)

I may be 2000 miles away, but I'm here

[anonymous]

Hun, you're right, i dont think I or anyone else can ever feel the pain that you felt and at such a young age but I'll tell you one thing....look around you! You have people who love and care for you so much. I've cared about you since you were a freshman and I know you know that because you were there for me and I was there for you. We may have drifted in different directions over the years and I may be in Florida now, but there was never a time where I loved or cared for you any less. That's what friends are for and that's what I'm for. To help you go through times like this, to listen and be there. Love ya!

Vanessa G.