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Dean's Apartment - Carriage House - Wednesday Afternoon

May 13, 2009 08:36

Sam was drunk again ( Read more... )

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stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 12:46:18 UTC

Lilly had been doing her own kind of grieving over Dean's death and although she wasn't completely sober, she had a best friend that she wanted to check on. She didn't bother putting on make up or anything, she just wasn't in the mood.

She had heard sounds coming from Dean's apartment, so that was the first place she went and knocked on the door. If he didn't answer, she would just walk in.

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 12:49:24 UTC

Sam ignored the knock and did another shot.

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 12:53:24 UTC

Yeah, she expected that and opened the door. She walked over and sat near him with the two bottles she had brought with her. She had learned grief management from the best.

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 12:54:27 UTC

"Glasses in the cupboard," Sam said.

As greetings went it wasn't the best, but it was Lilly and he knew she got it.

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 12:56:10 UTC

She shrugged. "Don't need the glass. Bottles work just fine."

Yeah, she got it. Which is why she had brought extra. Sam had never let her get drunk alone and she figured she had given him space long enough.

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 13:01:32 UTC

Sam managed a wan smile and helped himself to her extra bottle.

They sat in silence for a long while before he finally spoke.

"It's my fault, Lil."

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 13:03:42 UTC

She took a drink before answering. "How do you figure, Sam?"

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 13:05:03 UTC

"He made a deal to save my life," he said. "I was dead. And he brought me back. At the cost of his own life."

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 13:06:59 UTC

"Who would he have made a deal like that with?"

Yeah, she so wasn't putting two and two together yet.

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 13:08:52 UTC

"Demon. And for some reason, they collected immediately instead of giving him twenty years like Logan got."

Drunk Sam = Indiscrete Sam.

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 13:11:54 UTC

Lilly's bottle froze at her mouth. "What do you mean like Logan got?" She took another drink, feeling that she was going to need it.

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 13:13:25 UTC

Aw hell.

"Uh... nothing."

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 13:14:59 UTC

"That's not going to work with me," she said softly. "What did Logan do?"

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 13:17:08 UTC

"He made a deal to get you back," he said. "Traded his soul for your life. Demon gave him twenty years. We figured we could figure out a way to break it by then."

stilluptonogood May 13 2009, 13:21:29 UTC

Lilly felt sick. She felt beyond sick.

She stared at Sam as she processed his words. "He sold his soul... to bring me back..."

She took several drinks from her bottle as she fought to keep Sam from seeing that her hands were shaking. They were supposed to be dealing with his grief, not hers.

But oh god, it explained so much. Explained why -- after everything -- why Logan had reacted the way he did when the story of who murdered her and why had come to light.

"But Dean... they didn't give Dean the same deal?"

How did that even make sense?

normal_i_am May 13 2009, 13:25:14 UTC

Sam shook his head. Ow. That was a mistake. He took another swig from the bottle.

"I don't know, Lilly. And you were never supposed to know what Logan did. I'm sorry."

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