Damn It All [Drabble]
Title : Damn It All
Genre : Romance, Slices of life
Rating : PG-13
Pairing : HaeHyuk
Warning : None
Summary : When a sudden action leads to a confession
This is a small present from me for monshie09_lj since her birthday is today, 26th Jan J
It was already very late at night, and Hyukjae felt his eyelids weighted tons. He can barely lift them up. He dragged his feet to his beloved bedchamber and plunge into his cloud-soft like mattress. He immediately fell to sleep.
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Hyukjae opened his eyes and looked at the watch on his bedside table. It’s only 3 am.
He still felt a little bit sleepy and still he had no idea why he suddenly woke up in the middle of the night.
Oh well. Might as well change before I get back to sleep.
Since he felt so tired when he arrived to the dorm earlier, he went straight to bed even though he was still in his good suit, to which he came back from attending a formal dinner event.
While undressing, he thought that the night was rather warm. Usually at a time like this he’ll be wrapped in his blanket since the coldness of the night gives him shivers to the bone. He’s not complaining though, he thought that it was the perfect chance for him to be topless, since he’s more comfortable sleeping like that.
Wearing just a plain short, he went back to bed to have another eye shut.
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Looking at that peaceful sleeping face, he can’t help but to adore it. He was here looking for a company and to have a peaceful night, but the second he take a look at the beautiful being in front of him, he was mesmerized.
It was rather shocking for Donghae to see Hyukjae without his shirt on, but it’s not really a new thing to him. He felt warm air engulfing his whole body, it was extremely hot for him, despite only wearing a white wife beater and loose pants.
As he kneeled beside the bed, his eyes never left the beauty’s face. His fingers traveled to ruffle the blonde’s hair and then to the side of the sleeping boy’s cheek and stroke it as gently as he possibly can. He was trying to force himself not to look anywhere but the curly eyebrows that flickered once in a while, indicating how intense the sleeping boy’s dream was.
However, Donghae’s eyes betrayed him as he took a glance of the perfect pair of lips. It’s like Donghae’s body have a mind of its own, Donghae didn’t even realized that he already descended his lips to meet the other’s lips.
He almost immediately regretted the action, until he felt the lips he’s kissing responded. The simple touch of lips suddenly becoming more intense, more demanding and none of the two realized that their hands roamed all over each other’s body while at it.
Donghae never felt this good before, he was on fire, he can’t control any of his body’s doings but heck, he enjoyed every second of it. With teeth clashing and tongues battling, he didn’t even realize when he started to let out a moan of the boy’s name.
Hnnmm… Hyukkie…
And with that suddenly the blonde stopped him with a harsh push but fortunately the fall wasn’t that hard and Donghae landed safely on his back.
Oh God, Donghae, what are you doing?!
….I… I don’t know…
What… We... Did we just…
I think we did, Hyukjae.
…. I thought it was only a dream, like usual.
Like usual..?
… Pretend I didn’t say that.
There was a suffocating silence after and that gave Donghae a little time to think.
I won’t, I won’t pretend you didn’t say that because I obviously heard it and why should I when I know that you feel exactly the same feeling as I feel towards you?
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Damn with all the people, Hyukkie! I don’t care what will they think but tonight let me confess to you this. I love you with all my heart and whatever I did and will do can’t change how I feel about you.
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So what if we’ll be screwed and be judged by the public? Do they understand what we feel? Have they gone through what I have been through, trying very hard with every fiber in my body to keep this feeling as a secret? No, they don’t, so they don’t have a single right on bashing us. Damn it all, Hyukjae, damn it all!
Hae…
Hyukkie... I’m sorry, but I don’t regret falling in love with you at all. It was the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me.
And with that Hyukjae smiled very sincerely, the gummy smile that Donghae loves to see every single second of the day, but along with it a drop of tear flowed down Hyukjae’s cheek, followed by a few more. Seeing that, Donghae’s heart doing the flip because of that astonishing smile but his gut felt like being ripped because of the tears that escaped.
It’s just that... I always noticed that you take the public criticism too much. Sometimes those kinds of things needed to be ignored because we’re bound to have some negatives among the crowds. It’s like you’ve been trapped by it and none of it will do you any good. You need to look through the negatives and listen to your heart, Hyukjae. What do you want to do? What will make you happy?
The tears stopped, but the smile remained.
I am happy when I‘m with you, Lee Hyukjae. I will always be. Are you happy when you’re with me Hyukkie?
With slow steps, Hyukjae approached Donghae with much carefulness, and when they are face to face with each other, the blond haired boy cupped the other’s face gently and muttered right when their lips were about to meet…
I am grateful that I am able to love, and to be loved by the same person.
So the night continued with a round of love-making that both of them never expected to happen.
END.