prerequisites and cancer sticks

[noodle_nose]

yesterday, after hearing of a giant accident on the freeway i was currently driving blocking 3 lanes of traffic in my direction close to my exit, i decided to try a new route home. i don't know los altos very well, so i called my mom looking for directions home from where i was. she suggested i take the el monte exit and take it to foothill

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[noodle_nose]

i kinda get that inkling in the back of my mind to just say "screw you, i do what i want!" i feel sometimes like saying this is a passive-aggressive way of controlling what i do.

on the other hand, if i did start to smoke again, i'd rather not have to deal with disappointment from the one person i hold very close to my heart. if i can avoid it, i will. it's just not worth it, in my opinion.

[lillebille]

I totally know what you mean by that cigarette feeling. I'm a social smoker and a stressed out smoker. I only smoke when I drink or am stressed. I really don't like them otherwise. However, I have found that I am in a situation like you were at work and I really just want one. It's a little strange considering that I have stopped smoking completely other than the drag I have when I'm drinking.

[noodle_nose]

yeah, i mean, i've gotten this feeling before, but yesterday was just SO STRONG! normally, i can just brush it off and move on. yesterday was just pretty bad.