So my first update in over two years. I have no idea what has made me decide to start reusing the world that is Livejournal but I felt that it was time
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I felt exactly like this for so long, I can't even tell you.
First kissed a guy: 20 (he was worth the wait) First time seeing someone/in a relationship: 23 First time "out"/clubbing: 23
I still feel so uber messed up with everything that happened. I feel like I can't trust anyone or anything because my health failed and people failed me so young. I feel like I can't trust being happy. It terrifies me. I deal with it every day, every hour and try and make progress and put it more behind me with each day that passes.
Seeing a therapist might help but I don't think there's anything wrong with how you feel. If *you* feel it's really hindering you and extra help might benefit you then I'll be right behind you in bringing someone else in to help. But there's nothing *wrong* with how you're feeling and there's nothing wrong with you. God, you're awesome. Also beautiful.
Now I'm quite jammed but I do have evenings and DVDs if you want to come my way. I'll either make sure you get home or you can stay here :)
You have no idea how much this helped me sweetheart, I think I'm just at that point I come to every few months and it felt goodt to let it out! I may have to take you up on the DVD offer, I'm gonna see when Skid might also be free for us to have a girly night?
Right now to apply to work at Lush and Bravissimo - money would be greatly appreciated at the moment I fear.
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First kissed a guy: 20 (he was worth the wait)
First time seeing someone/in a relationship: 23
First time "out"/clubbing: 23
I still feel so uber messed up with everything that happened. I feel like I can't trust anyone or anything because my health failed and people failed me so young. I feel like I can't trust being happy. It terrifies me. I deal with it every day, every hour and try and make progress and put it more behind me with each day that passes.
Seeing a therapist might help but I don't think there's anything wrong with how you feel. If *you* feel it's really hindering you and extra help might benefit you then I'll be right behind you in bringing someone else in to help. But there's nothing *wrong* with how you're feeling and there's nothing wrong with you. God, you're awesome. Also beautiful.
Now I'm quite jammed but I do have evenings and DVDs if you want to come my way. I'll either make sure you get home or you can stay here :)
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Right now to apply to work at Lush and Bravissimo - money would be greatly appreciated at the moment I fear.
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