So I got a new plan of action now. One that I can hopefully do for at least a month. That is not doing anything mean to anyone no matter what they do to me. Its the whole "turn the other cheek deal" For example last night I was only going to wash mine and Nolans clothes and say fuck Melissa's. But no instead I will wash everyones. Even if I know ( Read more... )

Do you ever think to yourself how can things get any worse? Then God shows you how. Here how my life is going. I live with my ex who I still have feelings for, but at the same time didnt talk but maybe 5 words to her this whole weekend in Minnesota. She of course has a boyfriend. I have a dead end job and will not be able to get any degree for a ( Read more... )

Hey you wanna know what I have been up to? I thought so. Ok so first I start drinking with Hydes friend Dennis. Then we go to the Bar of Louisville. It was crazy. Girls dancing on the bar, ok so most of the girls dancing were butter faces but hey beggars cant be choosers then we go back to the apartment and drink some more. I go to bed about 4am. ( Read more... )

Today a friend of mine is sad. I am lost now, because I want to tell her everything is all right but how can I give her advice when I cant seem to be good. I am not sure what God has planned for me but I hope it is something good. All I know is that i now have a reason. Maybe I can and maybe I cant. No scratch that I can and I will. I cant say much ( Read more... )

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So anyway I got news that one of Rascher and Melissa's friend is going to be with us for a week. I know her too since she used to be in the same reserve unit as us. Here is where it gets bad. Now there will be 3 girls leaving here. It is bad enough having 2. All guys who think it is cool to live with girls are either gay or have never lived with ( Read more... )

Okay so here is another part of my life. The United States Army Reserves. I have been in the reserves now for over four years and starting tomorrow is our drill weekend. Let me just get this out here. I love America, I love the army BUT I cant wait to get out of reserves. I dont regret going in, but there is no way I would ever do 20 years. I ( Read more... )

I hate it when things I do go ounnoticed. I dont need a thank you I just want to know that you see the change. But you dont, you dont notice that I am almost ALWAYS the one to take out the trash when it is way too overfull, or that I am usually the one to empty or load the dishwasher. Or that I am starting to follow the cleaning list you made for ( Read more... )

Holiday Inn is where I have been working at now for about a year. I am a bartender there, well at least I am SUPPOSED to be a bartender. Considering I work 11-5pm mainly all I do is serve food. I have worked with the general public in every job I have had since I was 16 and I can honestly say I hate people. People are dumb, snobby, fat, lazy and ( Read more... )

Okay so I had this dream last night. Here is a little back story though. At 12:15 am I set my alarm clock. Then at around 1 am I went to bed COMPLETELY SOBER. Ok so this is what I remember from my dream. I was lying in a field and it was completely dark, except for a few rays of light. I could see peoples shadows running all around me. I could ( Read more... )