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[nobody00x]

FUCK...I am sooo mad at myself!! Stupid stupid me for thinking that maybe just once I could have a life, and friends, and actual plans for my Saturday night. Fuck it. At work today I really tried, I said to Heather, "you want to go bowling tonight?" and she said "yeah that sounds fun, I'll get my bf to go too" I said "great, I'll gather some other

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[icecreamdream]

ay! sorry i missed your phone call .. silly me passed out on the bed and just woke up a little bit ago lol! i read your thingie about cameron and you've been letting this bother you for the longest time. don't regret it though because chances are if you guys never got together you'd be talking about how it should have happened - like with the josh situation. could you imagine if you dated him how you'd feel right now? like shooting him in the face. lol! the hardest part in my own personal situation is that, if the person is around all the time it is much more difficult to let them go. being that cameron lives in orlando and u guys prolly call each other frequently it's much more difficult to back away. so think, does he compliment your life? inspire you, influence you? help you in becoming all you can be? Or is he a threat to your future with the decisions hes made in the past? think clearly honestly . . . because its YOUR future.....and it really comes down to what makes YOU happy. if cameron keeps saying hes going to change, and