somehow you're still residing there at the back of my head, no matter how hard i try to push you out completely. it's never been this hard before.

well that was unexpected... yet strangely pleasant.

i faced it... and even in this state i survived.

i have proven to myself that i can be strong.

even on autopilot today, you were still there.

no matter what i tell myself, you won't leave.

what do i have to do for you to get out of my mind?

okay, i get it. you'd rather have them than me.

i trusted you. obviously i have bad judgement.

i was weak.

i fucked up.

it won't happen again.

not quite sure why, but everyone appeared to be in bad moods on friday night. so much of it was spent alone in my room ( Read more... )

why do i get the distinct feeling that you're avoiding me?

we talked.... it hurt like hell, but we talked. i don't have to like it, but i can live with it.

if i ignore everyone for the next few days, i apologise in advance. if i want to talk, i know where to find you all.

lust: a strong sexual desire; self-indulgent sexual desire (personified as one of the deadly sins)

love: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness; A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person ( Read more... )