It's the third week of Nanowrimo 2009. I think I am totaling 7,000 words. I'm fairly certain that I'm not going to win Nanowrimo this year. Just a hunch I have ( Read more... )

Because I haven't update in such a long time, here is a video.

(And because Nick Cave and Blixa are my current obsessions and this video is too god damn silly.)

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Spring break was sort of an awful thing.  When it started, I lost all my reserve to get all A's this semester.  I have a German test tomorrow that I have barely studied for, and though I tell myself I will sit in the study room and work, I suspect I will stumble and look for new hairstyles and stare at my Patrick Wolf wallpaper the entire time.

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It is 3 in the morning and I can't sleep. I need to get up in 6 hours but sleep is probably the most unappealing thing in the world at the moment. I think it has something to do with the coke I drank during Outlook, but it may also be because my head is this swimming, watery thing with too much water in it.

I'm feeling sort of regretful at the ( Read more... )

I had a strange weekend.  It was supposed to involve Brianna, but it didn't.  And it involved Chalsea and Meredith and I watching Italian Batman porn, and going to Pow-Wows.

I got locked out of my room at 5 in the morning, after Meredith dropped me off, and had to pound on the door to wake Katie up.  She thought she was dreaming my knocking.

I ( Read more... )

I am reading William S. Burroughs and listening to Joanna Newsome.  She's singing about sprouts and beans and he's writing about naked boys having threesomes in details that would make me blush if I wasn't a few pages away from being done with the book.  I think "The Wild Boys" is one of my favorite books.  Because there are some bits that are so ( Read more... )

Today Samm said to me "Don't be a push over friend."

And I told her I didn't know how not to be one.

Then she told me what exactly a "push over" friend was-the person who is ignored, the person who asks to hang out and is rejected, the person who calls first and talks first, until they're needed for something, until they can be used.

And I thought " ( Read more... )

I'm supposed to be doing homework right now.

But at some point in between skipping to German and wanting to bash my own face in, I realized something-when I'm decent enough at German, I can finally watch those German films with Bela B. in it.  I then, even more startingly, realized I could finally read all that Die Arzte slash fanfiction I have ( Read more... )

Things I've learned this weekend:

Everyone is a liar.

Any promise that begins with "I'll never..." is a lie.

Tomato soup is a lot better when it costs $4.

I've never been so unsure of myself as I am right now.

Hearing your name makes everything inside of me cringe.

I should have probably kissed you when I had a chance.

There is a haunted bathroom ( Read more... )

I am really happy at the moment.  It's three in the morning but I can't sleep.  I just got done watching Repo! with Mac and David and Beth and for some reason I'm full of this excitement I haven't had for a while.  I danced around the bathroom while I was getting changed, singing "We Started this Op'ra shit" in muted tones because everyone else is ( Read more... )