HP/SPN: Touched by an Angel (Harry, Castiel)
Title: Touched by Angel (VI)
Author: nilitara
Fandom: HP, SPN
Rating: PG
Charaters: Harry, Castiel
Summary: Castiel cannot appear at Hogwarts, not on his own.
For: crossovers100
Prompt: 071. Broken.
Disclaimer: The characters are the property of their respective creator. I own nothing.
Note: Thanks to dixid who read through the story and corrected my mistakes. If some are still there, they are mine.
Touched by an Angel - Main entry
071. Broken.
Castiel had gone on watching Harry all year long. He had seen the eleven-year boy discover with an unprecedented awe the magical world and its differences with the one he knew, had seen him discover the real story behind his parents’ death, one that he had never been able to reveal to him, even when assuring him that James and Lily Potter hadn’t died in a car accident.
He had seen Harry make friends for the very first time in his life and the joy the angel had felt at seeing it had been one he had never experienced before. Harry deserved nothing more than to finally have people who cared for him and it made his heart swell to see things going so well for his young charge.
Unfortunately for the little boy, everything wasn’t going as well in the end. When Harry had had to take on the troll to save Hermione, Castiel had been worried. He knew enough about the magical world to know that such creatures were dangerous and he had known, since the very beginning of course, who exactly was behind the attempt, the same person responsible for Harry’s near miss on the Quidditch field.
He had longed to tell Harry the whole truth in that moment, to help him out, especially when he had seen the wizard and his friends going in the wrong direction. Snape may never have been very friendly to Harry but he had only been trying to save him and not kill him. Sadly, there was no way he could just appear like that in Hogwarts, not onto what was such an unholy ground. And Harry had yet to discover the secret of the pendant.
As soon as things had gone south, Harry had begun to call to him, looking for an answer, a reassurance, but Castiel was unable to answer as Harry hadn’t done the one thing that would allow him to materialize inside the castle. So he could only watch. Helpless, as the young boy tried to do his best to face the situation, all the while wondering why his guardian angel wasn’t answering his more and more desperate calls for help.
In the beginning, he could see Harry wonder about what was going on. He didn’t really understand Castiel’s absence in such trying moments. The first few times he hadn’t answered the call, Harry had assumed that it was because the angel had other charges and had to help them. However, when time passed and there was still no sign of him, he was forced to revise his judgment.
Unfortunately, the reason his mind worked out was far from the real one and Castiel was dreading the consequences.
As he was looking for an answer, Harry was reminded of something he had learnt a long time ago, when Petunia and Vernon were talking about magic. The first thing was that it didn’t exist but, the second one, was that even if it did exist, it would be a sin because magic had always been considered an heresy by Christianity, a sin against God. So, maybe that was it. The reason for Castiel’s absence was that he had become something God couldn’t accept and, therefore, had forced Castiel to stop watching over him because he didn’t deserve his angel anymore. Or, maybe Castiel had made the decision himself. The consequences were the same, though: he was alone once again.
As Harry pronounced the words out loud in the loneliness of an unoccupied classroom, as if to make himself believe it, Castiel felt a strong pain in his heart. It hurt so much to have Harry think that of him but there was nothing he could do. He couldn’t do anything to change it, not without Harry understanding the only way to let him into Hogwarts.
It was distressing him, as much as it was killing Harry slowly but, for now, there wasn’t anything that could be done. Only time would tell whether the sense of betrayal could be appeased or whether Harry would never call upon Castiel again. Would the kid still believe in him after that year or would Castiel have been forsaken by Harry when it wasn’t even his fault.
Castiel could only hope that, one day soon, Harry would touch the pendant because he felt that if he had to wait until Hogwarts had ended, it would be too late. And he just couldn’t accept that..