100 Super Junior Fics Challenge! #100 : Regrets
Title: Regrets
Pairing: Leeteuk/Kangin
Rating: G
Genre: romance, angst
Summary: Laying awake in a bed that doesn't feel like his, sleeping alone with someone missing from his side. It's not the same, not right, but it doesn't seem so bad when Kangin thinks about that fact that soon he'll see all of their smiles again...
A/N: [2/100] 2nd one ;D it's a little sad but happy at the end? it's somewhat short :/ LOL anyway~ hope you enjoy!! comments are really appreciated <33
This isn't right...
Kangin realizes this as he's lying awake in the middle of the night. He knows it's true because there are multiple people in the many bunks around him, some sleeping soundly while others snore loudly. Their unfamiliar to him, people he doesn't know and has yet to understand.
There's no murmurs of people awake like he is outside of the room, not glow of light underneath the door to signify such. He doesn't have to worry about when to wake up - because the alarm will ring - and he doesn't have to remember the lines he'd thought of earlier for his next radio show or other program. There will be no warm breakfast made by an eternal maknae waiting for him, no rush to get out the door and to the car to get to the hair salon before they go to their real destination.
The bed he's sleeping in feels strange underneath him, the covers lacking his own familiar scent. It seems cold, though it isn't, maybe what it really feels like is... empty?
There's no waiting up for him at early morning hours so he can soothe his aches and emotional pains. There's no thin, warm body that crawls under the covers to lie curled into his side, no smell of that weird shampoo he always insists on using. There's no insecure soft whispers of loving nothings that would come from soft, pink lips, to which he'd reply to in a hazy daze but with a smile on his face nonetheless. No silky hair to run his hands through to help himself fall asleep, no one to sing a lullaby to to help them fall asleep.
It isn't right.
If he'd known, he wouldn't have left the dorms that night. If he'd known, he wouldn't have gotten into that stupid fight and then drove when he knew he wasn't supposed to.
If he'd known he'd have to leave him, his sun, his angel, he'd never have done any of those things.
Because it just isn't right, but no matter how much his heart longs for that man and grieves his mistakes that led to his earlier than planned enlistment into the army, it won't change the fact that he'll have to wait and deal with this for two years.
'Leeteuk... You'll wait for me, won't you?'
He may regret a lot of things, but he's never once felt that way about they had - what they still have - and has never thought twice over giving his heart completely to him.
It isn't right, but for now he'll have to settle for wrong.
He can make it. For them, his friends, fans, family. For him, his love. For himself.
It's only a short journey.
Pairing: Leeteuk/Kangin
Rating: G
Genre: romance, angst
Summary: Laying awake in a bed that doesn't feel like his, sleeping alone with someone missing from his side. It's not the same, not right, but it doesn't seem so bad when Kangin thinks about that fact that soon he'll see all of their smiles again...
A/N: [2/100] 2nd one ;D it's a little sad but happy at the end? it's somewhat short :/ LOL anyway~ hope you enjoy!! comments are really appreciated <33
This isn't right...
Kangin realizes this as he's lying awake in the middle of the night. He knows it's true because there are multiple people in the many bunks around him, some sleeping soundly while others snore loudly. Their unfamiliar to him, people he doesn't know and has yet to understand.
There's no murmurs of people awake like he is outside of the room, not glow of light underneath the door to signify such. He doesn't have to worry about when to wake up - because the alarm will ring - and he doesn't have to remember the lines he'd thought of earlier for his next radio show or other program. There will be no warm breakfast made by an eternal maknae waiting for him, no rush to get out the door and to the car to get to the hair salon before they go to their real destination.
The bed he's sleeping in feels strange underneath him, the covers lacking his own familiar scent. It seems cold, though it isn't, maybe what it really feels like is... empty?
There's no waiting up for him at early morning hours so he can soothe his aches and emotional pains. There's no thin, warm body that crawls under the covers to lie curled into his side, no smell of that weird shampoo he always insists on using. There's no insecure soft whispers of loving nothings that would come from soft, pink lips, to which he'd reply to in a hazy daze but with a smile on his face nonetheless. No silky hair to run his hands through to help himself fall asleep, no one to sing a lullaby to to help them fall asleep.
It isn't right.
If he'd known, he wouldn't have left the dorms that night. If he'd known, he wouldn't have gotten into that stupid fight and then drove when he knew he wasn't supposed to.
If he'd known he'd have to leave him, his sun, his angel, he'd never have done any of those things.
Because it just isn't right, but no matter how much his heart longs for that man and grieves his mistakes that led to his earlier than planned enlistment into the army, it won't change the fact that he'll have to wait and deal with this for two years.
'Leeteuk... You'll wait for me, won't you?'
He may regret a lot of things, but he's never once felt that way about they had - what they still have - and has never thought twice over giving his heart completely to him.
It isn't right, but for now he'll have to settle for wrong.
He can make it. For them, his friends, fans, family. For him, his love. For himself.
It's only a short journey.