[FIC] Eternity (Sequel to Forever) [One-shot]
Title: Eternity (Sequel to Forever)
Genre: Romance
Length: One-shot
Author: nic88
Pairing: Yunjae
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Would they be together in the next life?
A/n: I think this turned out to be quite bad.Basically, I don't know what I was writing.
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I used to be so naughty when I was little.
When I was in the kindergarten, I liked to lift up girls’ tiny skirt to reveal their undies and I would enjoy seeing other kids laughing at them.
I liked to snatch their combs and mirrors when they were gladly admiring their precious hair.
I even stick chewing gums on their hair, and then watched them crying and whining.
But of course, I received punishments for my own act.
I was a devious kid, that all my friends were asking why I was so particular about bullying girls.
I just answered, “I don’t like girls.”
“Yunho, you like boys then?” They exclaimed.
I ignored their question and still continued with my bullying. Probably, I only had phobia towards girls, but I love my mum, my grandmother and my aunties.
But after I met him, there was a thump in my heart that was telling me that I had to stop all my childish acts and this signaled the real beginning of my life.
The first time I met him, it was at my neighbourhood playground.
At some distance, I saw a little figure sitting on the bench. I would just say that my eyes were so sharp that I could see his face clearly from quite a distance away.
He was looking at me, with his friendly smile on his face. I thought I had seen an angel, like those little angels who have tiny wings behind their backs and they are all naked.
But before I could get nearer to him, a lady came and left the playground with him hand-in-hand.
What popped out of my mind was that I need to see him again.
I told my mum after I got home, but my mum asked me back, “Isn’t that cupid instead of angel?”
Hmm…… I did not know either. But he was the prettiest angel I had seen before, prettier than any girls in my class.
After a few days, I felt like my prayer was being heard by God. With that, I finally had the chance to meet my angel one more time.
When my mum brought me to together to visit our new neighbour, I knew my eyes were shining when I saw the angel sitting on the couch and was hugging a pink bear.
As I approached nearer to him, my heart was full of excitement and some unknown feelings.
That feeling was indescribable. I felt like I had known him since long time ago.
I stood in front of him and had my right hand out for a hand shake with him. But to my surprise, he did not make any response and just blinked his big eyes.
“I’m sorry. This is my son, Jaejoong. He has eye problem since he was born, that’s why he can’t see you.” Mrs. Kim explained as she sat down beside my angel and gently patted his head. He smiled at me, as if he could feel that I was in front of him.
I was shocked at her statement. Those big eyes can’t see.
At that time, I realized that he could not even see me and his smile at the playground was not for me. I felt a bit disappointed but I swore I would make him smile only for me. I did not notice how possessive I was at that time, but fortunately I never gave up this thought.
I did not know why I did that, but there was always a voice in my mind that kept telling me to make his stay with me.
And from that time onwards, people would always saw me together with Jaejoong. I could feel that he was happy to have me as my friend.
“If there’s Jaejoong, then there must be Yunho too.” That was how people described us.
I knew he had low self-esteem because of his eyes, but he would never show it to anyone. So, the only thing I could do was to make him smile, because his smile was always the most precious thing to me.
I would just say that we were best friends by then.
But I did not know that everything would change after I encountered a weird dream.
******
Time flied by fast.
Still, there would always be Jaejoong in my life.
We were both 20 years old at that time.
As most people said, it was time for love.
Watching others who were at the same age as me fell in and fell out of love, I did not have any feeling about that nor that I had mood for finding a girlfriend.
It was weird but something was bothering me.
Well, I sort of realized that I was in love with my best friend, as I found myself outraged with jealousy when I saw him chatting with other girls.
I was worried that Jaejoong might get himself a girlfriend and set me aside from his life.
“Jaejoong, did you ever think of finding a girlfriend?” I asked him.
“You know I can’t. My eyes…… I wouldn’t want to burden anyone.” He flashed a weak smile, I knew I should never ask this kind of question.
******
As I felt my love for him grew strong every single day, I started to have nightmares.
At first, I could only see blur images and hear mixed voices which were unclear in my dream.
And I would wake up in tears.
Slowly, I began to see more and of course the images were becoming more visibly.
Finally, I realized that the dream was about my past life, or should I say our past life, me and Jaejoong. How he committed suicide…… Blood rushing out from the cut of his wrist…… How we committed suicide together……
It felt real that my heart ached every time I dreamt of it.
But whether it was real or not, I would never let him go.
******
I rushed to Jaejoong’s bedroom.
“Jaejoong, I need to talk to you.” And finally I decided to confess my feelings to him.
“What was so important that you have to rush all the way to here?” Jaejoong asked as he stood up from the chair and slowly moved towards his bed and sat on the soft mattress.
“I…… I like you, Jaejoong.” Okay, I know it was not a romantic confession, but I was sure that Jaejoong wouldn’t mind.
There was silence for a few seconds before he replied me back.
“I like you too. You’re my best friend.” He smiled but the next second he furrowed his eyebrows, “What’s wrong with you, Yunho? You’re not acting like your usual self.”
Out of my control, my hands and legs started to move towards him and finally I got him in my embrace.
He was struggling at first, but finally stopped when he knew that he could not fight over my strength.
“Jaejoong.” I placed my head on the crook of his neck and whispered. “I love you.”
“Yunho, this is not right. Stop playing jokes with me.” He said coldly.
“This is real. I am now confessing to you. You don’t like me?” I knew he liked me, I just knew it.
“No, I don’t.” He replied stubbornly.
“You’re lying, I can see that you like me, through your eyes.”
“What can you see? Don’t you remember that I’m blind? You would never see anything through my eyes.” I could feel that he was trembling while he shouted out those words. It might be harsh to force him, but I wanted to have him as my lover.
“Jaejoong, please! Please stop lying to your heart, okay?” That’s not your real answer, not the real answer from your heart!
“I…… Yunho, we should not be together. You should not be with me, I’m blind. I would have burdened you. You should get a good life with a pretty wife and several kids, not with me.”
“Jaejoong, I’ll ask you for the last time. Do you even want to see me get married and have many kids? To see that you are not part of my life anymore? To see that we could only just be friends? To see that I would spend more time with my own family rather than you? Tell me, Jaejoong! Tell me!”
I could feel that his hands circled around my waist and with that, I knew I had succeeded.
“No, I felt suffocated just to think about that.” He tightened his grasp. I could hear him sobbing.
“Thank you, Jaejoong. Thank you.” I held him tighter, “I love you.”
“I…… I love you too.”
It was hardly audible, but still I was too grateful to have heard it.
I have prepared for any obstacles that we had to face together. I didn’t care about other people’s judgments or criticisms, I just needed the blessings from our parents.
And of course, we received objections at first for our relationship.
But a year later after we ran out of home and lived together, our parents finally came and stated their willingness to accept our relationship.
Well, it was quite a happy ending as I desired.
Now I know the reason I used to enjoy bullying girls. The reason was simple. It was because I would never look at them as how I look at my Joongie.
Kim Jaejoong, you would never ever escape from me again. Even if you are a boy and even you are blind, I won’t let you get away from me anymore. I would never be that stupid to hurt you as I did in our past life.
“Jaejoong, have you ever wondered how you were like during your past lives?” Actually, I was always thinking if Jaejoong had gotten back his past life memories too.
“Hmm…… I did thought about it before, if I could see in my past life or if I have did something that was wrong which lead to my blindness in my present life. But I don’t know, it doesn’t matter anyway……. because…… because I have you now.” I chuckled as I saw his flushed face. He’s still so shy. Probably it was a good thing that he did not remember our past life, it might bring more suffering to him.
“I ever heard people say that, when we are together for our present life, then we will still meet each other for the next life and next next life and next next next life. So you can have me forever.” This time, his face reddened as a tomato and he hurriedly burrowed his head under the pillow.
I laughed aloud at his cute reaction.
There’s one thing that I can promise to you.
You can have me for eternity.
Eternity, Kim Jaejoong.
END
Well, I think this is totally a fail, plus it's quite boring.
I didn't want to write in more details since it would probably turn out to be too long~
Anyway, comments are loved.