Saudade

[niayesungie]

Title: Saudade
Characters: Yesung, Siwon
Pairing: YeWon
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: My work of fiction.

Saudade
(n.) a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved and then lost; “the love that remains”

Comments

[choding_cloud]

You are really in the angst mode, eoh?
Kekekeke

[niayesungie]

all hell broke loose this morning eon. i'm on my period, also lack of sleep, and getting my worst thoughts 'confirmed' by someone else. i didn't even re-read this before, that's why there are so many mistakes & inconsistency in this fic :p

[cloud_alones]

somehow this fic make me sad.....

[niayesungie]

maybe that's bcz i wrote this in my anger and sadness, also in a rush this morning... Yesung really drives me crazy :(

[niayesungie]

hey look our ava are alike! :p

i don't dare post this anywhere else. not all people i know will be comfortable reading something like this. it's bcz i don't feel like this is a fic. in my heart i truly believe something similar to this actually happen in Jongwoon's life. people outside of my journal & twitter friends probably will never understand and think that i mislead them or spreading bad infos about my own bias... some people had spoken like that about me before so yeah, i just don't want to be misunderstood by people who never meant to understand me and my Jongwoon.

SNS all-kill? i don't get it how could people joke and mock him about that. FB, IG, twitter, weibo all at the same time always made me cringe, feel a pang inside my heart. how Jongwon craves for sweet words from fans to boost his confidence. it's so sad, it's horrible, it's scary. he needs us to assure him that he's not yet that distorted. do you think he'll ever heal? is it has only got to do with that crap of a company SM

[rednochan]

Wait, I see my name being mentioned up there #grins