It seems as if I've hit an all new low. The only thing is that I hit it weeks ago without even knowing it. You're probably wondering how that's possible. This past Friday I attended my first "therapy" session with Hamish ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I've been away for a week or so. There has been a lot going on in the last few days that I can't fully discuss. When Dom & Billy left for the comic convention I had an unwelcomed visitor. My husband dropped by (he shouldn't even be flying) and he tried to convince me to come home. I didn't want to leave Hawaii, but I'm affraid it couldn't ( Read more... )

There was a time when I thought that all of the world's mysteries are solved by time. I felt that if I lived long enough that answers would become appearant & that life would somehow make sense. Its hard coming to terms with the fact that an idea that I have clung to for so long is absolute bullshit ( Read more... )

I think I'm very slowly discovering the maternal instinct that I never thought that I had. I've spent the last few days on my hands & knees chasing dom_monaghan & billy_boyd's little boy & I couldn't be more amused. Watching a child can be a remarkable experience. Right now especially. Dommie's at the age where he's developping a keen personality of his own. When you ( Read more... )

It must be mansoon season because it has rained all day today. I've spent most of my time in the big house today still waiting on Dom, but not minding the solitude. I'm very slowly remembering the sound of my own voice, it had been so long since I'd heard it that I'd forgotten what it had sounded like (not to sound meglomaniacal, but its easy to ( Read more... )

How is it that I'm in the most beautiful place on the Earth & I'm presently so miserable ( Read more... )

I'm back in Maui today after a brief sojourn to the big island of Hawaii. I met up with an old publishing associate, Marcus, on the beach who invited me to stay with him for a few days at the King Kamehameha Club. Much to the dismay of my sailing instructor I indulged my friend & had an absolutely fabulous few days away ( Read more... )

... sex on a catamaran is never a good idea.

Must Be Pop - Disclaimer

So I've made it to Hawaii safe & sound (not that there was any doubt that I would). I am presently so blissed out. Its strange how time seems to stand still here. I've only remembered to update because Ham called to yell at me yesterday night (you see I had forgotten [or rather neglected] to call him for nearly a week now). Feigning an appology I ( Read more... )

If it wasn't already evident that I'm in the middle of a full on breakdown I'll just come right out & say it. I feel that we're all victims of our own actions, but don't interpret that as meaning that I'm depressed. I'm just starting over ( Read more... )