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[neophillia]

Out of the hospital again. Had gone into Winnipeg with knots in my stomach which I thought had more to do with questions I was scared of than my health but less than 24 hours later I was tied to many tubes and passing in and out of consciousness. Blood chemistry at toxic levels. and the whole thing strange. Having a really hard time associating

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[eressea]

meep!

Well, I'm glad you're home, I'm glad you're getting medical care, I'm glad there are people looking out for you.

At the same time, I recognize how distant and removed from things you can feel... kind of, "I know it's me in this bed, but at the same time, who is this person???"

New moon and Imbolc prayers going with you.

[neophillia]

thanks Brent. Sorry it took me so long to respond. I appreciate your thoughts though and hope you are doing allright. You've been one of the few people I've spent any time with that I trust has a real understanding of what this is all like. Take care of yourself.

[eressea]

Yup... I definitely know what it's like to be laying in a hospital bed thinking, "that's not my body."

In the best times, I sometimes amuse myself before getting up in the morning by doning an inventory and wondering, "what's not going to work today?" (Sometimes I get all offended and outraged when things don't work they way they used to, but that's another story.)