some things you always remember, some things you forget
A few quotes this morning, found in a dusty byway of Quoteland:
"To live with the conscious knowledge of the shadow of uncertainty, with the knowledge that disaster or tragedy could strike at any time; to be afraid and to know and acknowledge your fear, and still to live creatively and with unstinting love: that is to live with grace." (Peter Henry Abrahams, The View From Coyaba, 1985)
"I do not want to get to the end of my life and find that I just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well." (Diane Ackerman)
"Adapt yourself to the things among which your lot has been cast and love sincerely the fellow creatures with whom destiny has ordained that you shall live." (Marcus Aurelius)
"A man must pay the fiddler, in my case it so happened that a whole symphony orchestra often had to be subsidized." (John Barrymore)
"You wake up in the morning, and lo! your purse is magically filled with twenty-four hours of the magic tissue of the universe of your life. No one can take it from you. No one receives either more or less than you receive. Waste your infinitely precious commodity as much as you will, and the supply will never be withheld from you. Moreover, you cannot draw on the future. Impossible to get into debt. You can only waste the passing movements. You cannot waste tomorrow. It is kept for you." (Arnold Bennett)
The life consciously lived. It's a-NNOY-ing.
I think I will be a bad candidate for therapy. I go anyway. I think I am impossible to love. I'm loved anyway. I think I give far less to my friends than they give to me. Overall, they don't seem to care.
I have these odd moments where I just want to rail at people, stand and fist my hands and scream, "DAMN it, will you STOP being so UNDERSTANDING?!?"
But that's what's helping me get better. That's what's helping me reconnect.
If I ever go to Florida, I have to visit starlasoma so she can kick my ass in person. If I ever go to Texas again, I have to go hug nyghtshayde and meet her weird little dog. If I ever go to the East coast, I gotta swing by and see sphynxcatvp and hank_riker. If I ever go to Australia...
If I ever go to Australia, I hope I get one of those continent-tour packages, because...damn, more than a handful of you there, and of COURSE none of you live in the same place!
But in the meantime, I stay home, and I grumble and complain and bitch and moan about how I'm getting all this support.
How stupid is that?
I'll figure it out eventually. I'm just oddly cranky about it. I've never had to fight to be healthy, see, just accept that I wasn't. Totally new idea, here.
(Late insert: found the bit from Jeff Dunham I really, honestly thought was going to tank and tank hard from his last special. Boy pulled it off. I was impressed.
(Also: sad sad sad bit of cuteness. Seriously cute. But it made me cry.
(Which is maybe not the worst thing, I hold so damned much back. But bah, I hate tears.)
((Later insert: Christopher Titus apologizes. For those what haven't seen it.))
- "Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours."
--Swedish Proverb
- "Every time you wake up and ask yourself, "What good things am I going to do today?", remember that when the sun goes down at sunset, it will take a part of your life with it."
--Indian Proverb
"To live with the conscious knowledge of the shadow of uncertainty, with the knowledge that disaster or tragedy could strike at any time; to be afraid and to know and acknowledge your fear, and still to live creatively and with unstinting love: that is to live with grace." (Peter Henry Abrahams, The View From Coyaba, 1985)
"I do not want to get to the end of my life and find that I just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well." (Diane Ackerman)
"Adapt yourself to the things among which your lot has been cast and love sincerely the fellow creatures with whom destiny has ordained that you shall live." (Marcus Aurelius)
"A man must pay the fiddler, in my case it so happened that a whole symphony orchestra often had to be subsidized." (John Barrymore)
"You wake up in the morning, and lo! your purse is magically filled with twenty-four hours of the magic tissue of the universe of your life. No one can take it from you. No one receives either more or less than you receive. Waste your infinitely precious commodity as much as you will, and the supply will never be withheld from you. Moreover, you cannot draw on the future. Impossible to get into debt. You can only waste the passing movements. You cannot waste tomorrow. It is kept for you." (Arnold Bennett)
The life consciously lived. It's a-NNOY-ing.
I think I will be a bad candidate for therapy. I go anyway. I think I am impossible to love. I'm loved anyway. I think I give far less to my friends than they give to me. Overall, they don't seem to care.
I have these odd moments where I just want to rail at people, stand and fist my hands and scream, "DAMN it, will you STOP being so UNDERSTANDING?!?"
But that's what's helping me get better. That's what's helping me reconnect.
If I ever go to Florida, I have to visit starlasoma so she can kick my ass in person. If I ever go to Texas again, I have to go hug nyghtshayde and meet her weird little dog. If I ever go to the East coast, I gotta swing by and see sphynxcatvp and hank_riker. If I ever go to Australia...
If I ever go to Australia, I hope I get one of those continent-tour packages, because...damn, more than a handful of you there, and of COURSE none of you live in the same place!
But in the meantime, I stay home, and I grumble and complain and bitch and moan about how I'm getting all this support.
How stupid is that?
I'll figure it out eventually. I'm just oddly cranky about it. I've never had to fight to be healthy, see, just accept that I wasn't. Totally new idea, here.
(Late insert: found the bit from Jeff Dunham I really, honestly thought was going to tank and tank hard from his last special. Boy pulled it off. I was impressed.
(Also: sad sad sad bit of cuteness. Seriously cute. But it made me cry.
(Which is maybe not the worst thing, I hold so damned much back. But bah, I hate tears.)
((Later insert: Christopher Titus apologizes. For those what haven't seen it.))