Comments | neeroc: Me

neeroc

Me

Jun 22, 2005 22:02

Comments 7

heathog June 23 2005, 13:47:41 UTC

Do you have any one you can talk to on a regular basis? A good friend, a counselor, a sister? I think it is SO easy to start a downward spiral once depression sets in, and I find it most helpful to be able to bounce my feelings off of someone who cares about me, but is removed enough to notice if things look "off".

((hugs))

neeroc June 27 2005, 01:31:10 UTC

Thanks. One of the biggest problems I have is that when I start feeling this way, I shut myself off from other people. I am feeling better, I think just recognizing it and admitting it has helped. I've also talked to hubby about it some.

heathog June 27 2005, 13:33:01 UTC

Phew--I'm glad you are at least talking to your hubby about it! Nip that depression in the bud!!

spydielives June 23 2005, 14:12:21 UTC

Talking yourself into a spiral is certainly a guarentee to one (not that that is what you are intentionally doing). I just know from experience that it happens, without your "saner" part of your mind even realizing it ( ... )

neeroc June 27 2005, 02:03:05 UTC

I really appreciate your reply. Writing this post was part of my trying to snap myself out of my funk, mood, obsession with depression. As long as I am not admitting what is going on, it will get worse. I was actually physically ill most of the evening after writing this, but felt better for writing it the next day.

I still haven't even started addressing any of the issues themselves, nor am I sure how I'm going to, but I have admitted to myself and to those that are close to me that I'm worried and overwhelmed, so it's a start. I have recognized my pattern and am trying to break out of it.

Thank you for your nudge.

piknik June 23 2005, 17:27:11 UTC

I wish there was something I could say to help, but I know from personal experience that you are working through this on your own. I always thought talking about it helped, but I agree with a previous post that you need someone to talk to who won't always sympathize or empathize with you (it gives you a more subjective outlook).

From what I can tell, I think you've expressed a lot of your personality here in lj. At least you have to the point that if we were even remotely close geographically, I would want to hang out with you in person. And there's nothing wrong with only wanting to share certain parts of yourself with other people. *Especially* on a medium like lj.

neeroc June 27 2005, 02:19:25 UTC

Thanks. This post was a huge leap for me - I'm not one to share or even try to draw any in-depth attention to myself. I was sick after posting it, and was tempted several times to remove it or hide it, but I really couldn't. I have far too many friends that can empathize with me, which isn't ideal. Even less so is the fact that one of the first things I do is withdraw from social contact. I made a specific point this time of sharing where I am with hubby and a couple of close friends, now the ball is in my court again to make further progress.

Thanks again.