Kissing in Cars - Chapter Five
Title: Chapter Five
Rating: T
Warnings: Cursing
Summary: Inspired by Kissing in Cars by Pierce the Veil. When Jacob gets the invitation to Bella's wedding, he doesn't run, but he does lose his last hopes of ever getting her back. He gets a pep talk from an unexpected person which inspires him to give winning back the love of his life one last shot. (Click to start from beginning)
"Stupid, stupid, stupid," Bella chanted to herself as she stood over the sink, fresh out of the shower. "You alright in there, kiddo?" Charlie called from the hall on his way to his bedroom. "Yeah, Dad, fine."
Bella looked back in the mirror and glared at herself. Seriously, she thought, who says something like that? It was inconsiderate and heart wrenching, especially when Bella thought that of course hearing something like that could only evoke images of her lips attached to Edward's in Jacob's mind. It was like all Bella was capable of doing was hurting him.
It wasn't even true. What experience did she have, save for a couple of kisses with Edward that could barely be considered open-mouthed? Jacob… he was a good kisser. He was an amazing kisser, actually. Bella thought back to their kiss on the cliff before the new-born fight and she felt goose bumps. If she was being honest with herself, she was self sabotaging. Saying something as hurtful and confidence shattering as that was sure to get Jacob to stop loving her. At least maybe now there was more of a chance that he would move on.
Bella gathered her things from the bathroom and walked into her bedroom where Edward was waiting for her. She climbed into bed and he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her closer to him. As much as she tried to, she couldn't get comfortable while snuggled into his hard form. She finally just gave up and lay still, letting a sigh escape. "What are you thinking of, love?"
"The sun."
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Jacob sat at his kitchen table, picking at what remained of his third bologna sandwich. "Eat it. We don't have food to waste," Billy said, rolling into the kitchen and to the fridge to pour himself a glass of water for his meds. Jacob glanced up at his father and took a bite, shooting Billy a "happy now?" look. Billy wheeled himself over to the table and stopped across from Jacob. "I don't even remember the last time I had to tell you to eat. "What's on your mind, son?"
Jacob sighed. "Bella."
"Oh God, not this again. Didn't I-"
"I'm just upset about something that happened the other day, alright?"
"Did Bella do something?" Jacob really didn't want to tell his father what happened, not after the lecture he'd gotten. Of course what Bella had said hurt him, but he didn't want his father to think any less of Bella than he already did. He reluctantly told him. "She said something to me the other day that made me feel like crap." Billy started to say something and Jacob quickly added, "But I think it's because she was upset or something. I'm sure she didn't mean it." He'd partly said it to placate Billy… and partly to make himself feel a little better, even though he knew it was a lie.
Billy looked thoughtful. "Charlie did say something about her being crushed that her truck had finally died for good. Still, that's no reason for her to be nasty to you. You need to let this go, Jacob."
Jacob glance at the kitchen's clock and stuffed the rest of his sandwich in his mouth. "I have to patrol now."
As soon as Jacob was in the woods and phased, everyone else that was phased invaded his mind and too many thoughts at once were sent his way.
You should've left it alone, man.
Wow, can't believe she said that.
I can, I've always known she was a bitch!
I think she's nice. Everyone says bad things every once in a while.
Shut up, Seth. You just think she's hot.
Don't talk to my brother like that, Call. I'll rip your fucking tail off.
Could you not treat everyone like shit for once?
Fuck you, Quil.
Could you all just shut up?
Sorry man, you feeling alright?
Yeah, fine I guess.
Liar.
Shut the hell up, Leah.
Why should I? No reason to feel that bad for him; it was his choice to go after her again.
Yeah, with a hell of a lot motivation from you.
Well forgive me for trying to actually do something nice for once!
You should've just stuck to being mean.
Cool off, alright. She was just trying to help me.
Thanks, Black.
No problem. What should I do now?
Dude, you're not really thinking of still perusing this, are you? She's broken your heart more times than any of us can count.
Yes, Embry, I'm still going to try.
I agree with him, man.
Well I don't, I think it's sweet that he's still trying.
Fruits can't vote.
I swear, Call. You've got one more time to insult my brother before I kill you.
Shut up, Embry. You too, Quil. What should I do, Leah?
Leah did the wolf version of a shrug. I say we just stick to the plan. Get her back over here. You're going to the bonfire tonight, right?
Yeah.
Alright, invite her.
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For the second time this week, Bella's Mercedes pulled up to Jacob's house. He met her at her door. "Bella," he nodded, his hands in his pockets. It was good to see her again, but he was still a little bitter about their last visit. Bella seemed just as distant, but he knew she would be. Mostly because he just knew what kinds of reactions she had to certain occurrences but part of it was their phone call earlier.
"Hello?"
"There's a bonfire tonight, I'd like it if you came."
"Oh, Jake, I'm so sorry about the other day. It was stupid and I wasn't thinking and I ruined the game and I don't-"
"Bella stop. I'll get over it." Because that's just what Jacob did; Bella would hurt him and he'd get over it because he loved her so much - too much. "Will you come?"
"I… don't know, Jacob."
"Please, Bell? What is it, the leech won't let you out of his sight?"
She sighed. Jacob could hear both the anger and indecisiveness in it. "No, that's not it. Edward actually left this morning to go hunting."
"So then nothing is holding you back. Come down." She sighed again and this time Jacob heard reluctant resignation. "Fine, but I'm not promising to be good company."
"Sure, sure. Same old stuff. See you in a few."
Jacob grabbed Bella's hand and started walking her towards the beach. "Jake," she said tugging her hand a bit. "Relax, Bella. I'm holding your hand, not trying to take off your top." Bella rolled her eyes but slipped her hand around his anyway.
"So the bloodsucker went hunting, huh?" She nodded. "He gonna bring you back a finger or something?"
Bella slapped his chest with a hit she thought probably hurt him, trying to feign anger but he saw the small smile playing on her lips. "Shut up, Jake. The Cullens don't even hunt humans. They're vegetarians."
"Yeah, honey, I know. If they didn't, a war would've broke out a long time ago. They still kill, and I've never seen a vegetarian hunt a deer so I think you need to find another term."
"Bella!" Embry came running over to them as they neared the beach and swooped Bella into a big hug. Funny, Jacob thought, a couple of hours ago Embry seemingly hated Bella.
"Hi, Embry, I've missed you!" Bella said as Embry set her down. She pushed a piece of hair behind her ear, still smiling. Jacob let his eyes linger a little too long on her lips. "Yeah I know, long time no see, vampire girl-"
"Don't call her that." They both glanced at Jacob, caught off guard by the venom in his tone. He was surprised as well. "Okay…" Embry said awkwardly. "What'cha been up to, Swan?"
"Not much, just being Bella."
"Sounds dangerous." Bella laughed. "Yeah, well-"
"I hate to break up this little reunion," he really didn't, "but I invited Bella over here to spend time with me."
"Whoa, aright, Jake. I'm just gonna go over," Embry scanned the beach and found Quil playing volleyball with some Forks girls, "there," he said pointing and walked off.
"If I didn't know any better I'd say you were jealous of Embry stealing my attention away from you." Jacob played it cool. "Nah, he just gets annoying."
Bella gave a curt nod, "I see." Jacob must've been seeing things because for some reason Bella looked… disappointed? No, that couldn't be it.
"Hey, Jake?" She said, breaking his thoughts. "Hmm?"
"I'm gonna go and get a drink from the snack table. Be right back, okay?"
"Sure, sure. I'll be waiting over there." He pointed to a log by the fire. Bella walked away and he walked over to the log. Jacob sat down and blew out a deep breath. He was going to make progress today. He had to. The wedding was getting closer with each passing day.
Jacob looked up to see Bella walking back to him, a drink in her hand and a girl by her side. What the hell?
"Hey, Jake. I found a new friend."
"Uh, great I guess." He looked up at the girl and gave her a quick smile and she smiled back shyly. "I meant for you. This is Melissa, she's from the Makah res and she's very into cars."
"Uh…"
"Sit, Melissa," Bella instructed the girl. Melissa sat beside Jake, still smiling. Bella started backing away. "Hi. Jacob, right?"
"Um, yeah."
"Alright you two, have fun."
"Bella, wait I-" She didn't hear him though because she was already running across the beach.
Chapter Six
Rating: T
Warnings: Cursing
Summary: Inspired by Kissing in Cars by Pierce the Veil. When Jacob gets the invitation to Bella's wedding, he doesn't run, but he does lose his last hopes of ever getting her back. He gets a pep talk from an unexpected person which inspires him to give winning back the love of his life one last shot. (Click to start from beginning)
"Stupid, stupid, stupid," Bella chanted to herself as she stood over the sink, fresh out of the shower. "You alright in there, kiddo?" Charlie called from the hall on his way to his bedroom. "Yeah, Dad, fine."
Bella looked back in the mirror and glared at herself. Seriously, she thought, who says something like that? It was inconsiderate and heart wrenching, especially when Bella thought that of course hearing something like that could only evoke images of her lips attached to Edward's in Jacob's mind. It was like all Bella was capable of doing was hurting him.
It wasn't even true. What experience did she have, save for a couple of kisses with Edward that could barely be considered open-mouthed? Jacob… he was a good kisser. He was an amazing kisser, actually. Bella thought back to their kiss on the cliff before the new-born fight and she felt goose bumps. If she was being honest with herself, she was self sabotaging. Saying something as hurtful and confidence shattering as that was sure to get Jacob to stop loving her. At least maybe now there was more of a chance that he would move on.
Bella gathered her things from the bathroom and walked into her bedroom where Edward was waiting for her. She climbed into bed and he wrapped his arms around her, pulling her closer to him. As much as she tried to, she couldn't get comfortable while snuggled into his hard form. She finally just gave up and lay still, letting a sigh escape. "What are you thinking of, love?"
"The sun."
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Jacob sat at his kitchen table, picking at what remained of his third bologna sandwich. "Eat it. We don't have food to waste," Billy said, rolling into the kitchen and to the fridge to pour himself a glass of water for his meds. Jacob glanced up at his father and took a bite, shooting Billy a "happy now?" look. Billy wheeled himself over to the table and stopped across from Jacob. "I don't even remember the last time I had to tell you to eat. "What's on your mind, son?"
Jacob sighed. "Bella."
"Oh God, not this again. Didn't I-"
"I'm just upset about something that happened the other day, alright?"
"Did Bella do something?" Jacob really didn't want to tell his father what happened, not after the lecture he'd gotten. Of course what Bella had said hurt him, but he didn't want his father to think any less of Bella than he already did. He reluctantly told him. "She said something to me the other day that made me feel like crap." Billy started to say something and Jacob quickly added, "But I think it's because she was upset or something. I'm sure she didn't mean it." He'd partly said it to placate Billy… and partly to make himself feel a little better, even though he knew it was a lie.
Billy looked thoughtful. "Charlie did say something about her being crushed that her truck had finally died for good. Still, that's no reason for her to be nasty to you. You need to let this go, Jacob."
Jacob glance at the kitchen's clock and stuffed the rest of his sandwich in his mouth. "I have to patrol now."
As soon as Jacob was in the woods and phased, everyone else that was phased invaded his mind and too many thoughts at once were sent his way.
You should've left it alone, man.
Wow, can't believe she said that.
I can, I've always known she was a bitch!
I think she's nice. Everyone says bad things every once in a while.
Shut up, Seth. You just think she's hot.
Don't talk to my brother like that, Call. I'll rip your fucking tail off.
Could you not treat everyone like shit for once?
Fuck you, Quil.
Could you all just shut up?
Sorry man, you feeling alright?
Yeah, fine I guess.
Liar.
Shut the hell up, Leah.
Why should I? No reason to feel that bad for him; it was his choice to go after her again.
Yeah, with a hell of a lot motivation from you.
Well forgive me for trying to actually do something nice for once!
You should've just stuck to being mean.
Cool off, alright. She was just trying to help me.
Thanks, Black.
No problem. What should I do now?
Dude, you're not really thinking of still perusing this, are you? She's broken your heart more times than any of us can count.
Yes, Embry, I'm still going to try.
I agree with him, man.
Well I don't, I think it's sweet that he's still trying.
Fruits can't vote.
I swear, Call. You've got one more time to insult my brother before I kill you.
Shut up, Embry. You too, Quil. What should I do, Leah?
Leah did the wolf version of a shrug. I say we just stick to the plan. Get her back over here. You're going to the bonfire tonight, right?
Yeah.
Alright, invite her.
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For the second time this week, Bella's Mercedes pulled up to Jacob's house. He met her at her door. "Bella," he nodded, his hands in his pockets. It was good to see her again, but he was still a little bitter about their last visit. Bella seemed just as distant, but he knew she would be. Mostly because he just knew what kinds of reactions she had to certain occurrences but part of it was their phone call earlier.
"Hello?"
"There's a bonfire tonight, I'd like it if you came."
"Oh, Jake, I'm so sorry about the other day. It was stupid and I wasn't thinking and I ruined the game and I don't-"
"Bella stop. I'll get over it." Because that's just what Jacob did; Bella would hurt him and he'd get over it because he loved her so much - too much. "Will you come?"
"I… don't know, Jacob."
"Please, Bell? What is it, the leech won't let you out of his sight?"
She sighed. Jacob could hear both the anger and indecisiveness in it. "No, that's not it. Edward actually left this morning to go hunting."
"So then nothing is holding you back. Come down." She sighed again and this time Jacob heard reluctant resignation. "Fine, but I'm not promising to be good company."
"Sure, sure. Same old stuff. See you in a few."
Jacob grabbed Bella's hand and started walking her towards the beach. "Jake," she said tugging her hand a bit. "Relax, Bella. I'm holding your hand, not trying to take off your top." Bella rolled her eyes but slipped her hand around his anyway.
"So the bloodsucker went hunting, huh?" She nodded. "He gonna bring you back a finger or something?"
Bella slapped his chest with a hit she thought probably hurt him, trying to feign anger but he saw the small smile playing on her lips. "Shut up, Jake. The Cullens don't even hunt humans. They're vegetarians."
"Yeah, honey, I know. If they didn't, a war would've broke out a long time ago. They still kill, and I've never seen a vegetarian hunt a deer so I think you need to find another term."
"Bella!" Embry came running over to them as they neared the beach and swooped Bella into a big hug. Funny, Jacob thought, a couple of hours ago Embry seemingly hated Bella.
"Hi, Embry, I've missed you!" Bella said as Embry set her down. She pushed a piece of hair behind her ear, still smiling. Jacob let his eyes linger a little too long on her lips. "Yeah I know, long time no see, vampire girl-"
"Don't call her that." They both glanced at Jacob, caught off guard by the venom in his tone. He was surprised as well. "Okay…" Embry said awkwardly. "What'cha been up to, Swan?"
"Not much, just being Bella."
"Sounds dangerous." Bella laughed. "Yeah, well-"
"I hate to break up this little reunion," he really didn't, "but I invited Bella over here to spend time with me."
"Whoa, aright, Jake. I'm just gonna go over," Embry scanned the beach and found Quil playing volleyball with some Forks girls, "there," he said pointing and walked off.
"If I didn't know any better I'd say you were jealous of Embry stealing my attention away from you." Jacob played it cool. "Nah, he just gets annoying."
Bella gave a curt nod, "I see." Jacob must've been seeing things because for some reason Bella looked… disappointed? No, that couldn't be it.
"Hey, Jake?" She said, breaking his thoughts. "Hmm?"
"I'm gonna go and get a drink from the snack table. Be right back, okay?"
"Sure, sure. I'll be waiting over there." He pointed to a log by the fire. Bella walked away and he walked over to the log. Jacob sat down and blew out a deep breath. He was going to make progress today. He had to. The wedding was getting closer with each passing day.
Jacob looked up to see Bella walking back to him, a drink in her hand and a girl by her side. What the hell?
"Hey, Jake. I found a new friend."
"Uh, great I guess." He looked up at the girl and gave her a quick smile and she smiled back shyly. "I meant for you. This is Melissa, she's from the Makah res and she's very into cars."
"Uh…"
"Sit, Melissa," Bella instructed the girl. Melissa sat beside Jake, still smiling. Bella started backing away. "Hi. Jacob, right?"
"Um, yeah."
"Alright you two, have fun."
"Bella, wait I-" She didn't hear him though because she was already running across the beach.
Chapter Six