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[nectar_]

I feel as though I’ve been constantly reaffirming myself to avoid this feeling of being haunted by my past. Sometimes I wonder when it’s all going to come back and completely extinguish this flickering flame of mine with an onslaught of guilt

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i melted the knot under a hot flame

[thirstfood]

sorry babe, you are tied to me for life. stretch as far and as long as deep down as you want, but i'm not letting go of the original starting point.

[thirstfood]

that kind of sounded threatening......ha

i've been freaking out. i hate myself because of saturday night. i don't know why. i thought i'd rejoice in my sexual beingness- and cfox has johhny and she won't return him. my self-hate will relinquish itself to loveofyou come saturday though. yes YES YES

ps. today was horrible, and then i stumbled upon (actually, mr. ostrye dropped it on the table in front of me) a small blue book: "An Artful Expression of the Inner Contention of Mind and Soul" and i opened the first page, unknowingly, to have my eyeballs fall upon calvin and hobbes, setting of a huntie trigger lightbulb old-camera-style flash in my head immediately, not grasping it, and then i turn to the next page, and my heart exploded from pure glee.

i'm retyping it. this is so much more fulfilling and happy than homework.

[thirstfood]

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