Don't mind me....

[naturallysilver]

I'm sorry I've been so absent lately.....I just needed to get away from Tanaka for a bit. I went home to Chiba and holed up for some time. I painted there but the pictures are....well, I guess dark would be a good word for them. I've just got to get myself together. I don't understand why I can't be stronger - why I can't be more.

I'm back now but

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[k_ryou]

You're strong en

You're not a bother. Never a bother. Is... Can I help, somehow?

At least now I won't get you sick.

And... can I see what you've done? The paintings, I mean.

I was worried, but I'm glad you're okay. I'm still worried, was it something I I missed you. I miss you.

[OOC: Strikes faint or deleted, your choice in answering them.]

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[naturallysilver]

I'm so tired, Ryou....

Tired of being scared, tired of feeling like I don't have control anymore.

I don't know if you really want to see my latest work. The pictures are dark....and ugly. I guess they are a reflection of what I've been feeling inside.

And I know what you are thinking. This was nothing you have done and I won't have you holding yourself responsible. I love you too much to see you get hurt.

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[k_ryou]

I know how you feel, Kojirou. It's hard.

They are a part of you. I'd still like to see them.

But... he can't hurt me, Kojirou, because that would be proof that something is going on. Please. Let me help?

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[naturallysilver]

Yeah, it is....I actually thought about dropping out for a bit, just to get away from him. But I refuse to give him the satisfaction of knowing he is getting to me like that - and I love you and this school and my art too much to do it.

I left some of the pictures at home but there are a couple at the studio. You can see them if you really want to. Come over at any time.

I don't know what you can do, Ryou - but just the thought that you care means the world to me.

[kentarou_kun]

How are you now Sae-san?

Have you got time to chat? Let me know if you do! It'd be nice to catch up with you!

[naturallysilver]

I've been better, Kentarou - but I'm hoping I can find a way to figure out things without others getting hurt, especially those I care for. It's a long story...

I'm happy to see that you are here though. Perhaps we can get together soon. You can almost always find me at the art studio.

[kentarou_kun]

If you want to talk, I'm nearly always available. It'd be nice to have a good chat with you and also see your latest creations.

Only that I'm going back to Chiba for the holidays... What are you going to do?