Be Mine Chapter 1
Title: Be Mine
Author: nakachii
Pairing: Nakachii (main), slight Yamachii, Yamajima, and Okajima
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: PG-13 (to be safe)
Disclaimer: I do not own the boys, they belong to JE and their parents. lol Although I am hoping to kidnap, just kidding. lol XP
Summary: Chinen has always been in love with Yuto since the debut of Hey! Say! 7, unable to express his feelings, he finds himself building a wall between the two. Yuto who has a cheerful personality finds himself falling into depression as his family is falling apart and as his popularity declines. Can Chinen break down barriers before its too late? How can puppy love escalate into desire and true love?
Chapter 1:
Chinen was hoping for attention, any attention that was and not just from anybody, but from Yuto. He had worked hard and now at the age of 15, he no longer was seen as the shy quiet boy but was now known as the flirt of the group with a sharp tongue.
It wasn’t as if he wanted to be seen as the flirt, but he didn’t want the others to realize his feelings for Yuto, neither did he want them to know he was attracted to someone in the group, especially since they were all boys. Also, to not seem serious, he would end all of his flirting off with rude remarks so that the others wouldn’t actually think he was gay.
Not that he thought it was bad to be gay, but he knew that he actually wasn’t, it was true that he was attracted to girls, but the only boy that made his heart beat was Yuto and it could only be him, no other boy.
Much to his disappointment, he was able to get good reactions out of everyone but the desired boy. All of his efforts were futile and it was starting to really irritate him.
-Flashback-
“Hey Yuto-kun~!” Chinen said smiling that irresistible smile, the one that made boys and girls gawk at how pretty he was.
“Oh, hi Chii-chan!” Yuto said unfazed, the usual sincere smile was given looking up from his homework.
Chinen pouted, “Hey, Yuto, do you mind if I sit on your lap?”
“Oh of course not, although I’m going to be writing so I might squish you, are you sure I’d be the comfy seat for you today?”
‘You’re the only one I want to sit on now’ he thought. “No, it’s fine,” he hopped onto Yuto’s lap, once again feeling his thin body, but somehow his body was more firm now, more muscular. The boy had grown much taller now too, when did Yuto grow so large, but yet his personality was still so childish, much more childish than the others and even himself. He found his eyes wandering across Yuto’s face; his eyebrows were furrowed concentrating on the task before him. ‘Are you not bothered that there is a boy your age on your lap? Do you not feel the slightest bit nerved or embarrassed?’
He couldn’t help but wonder but alas the answers to his questions were written well across Yuto’s face, he really wasn’t fazed at all. Sighing, he started to analyze the boy’s face, it was not usual they could be this close to one another after all. His long bangs fell over his large eyes, pretty long lashes almost as long as his own fluttered as he blinked deep in thought.
His eyes then traced his lower face, nice straight high nose, cute lips, and then he got to the jaw line. When had Yuto grown such a fine jaw line, it was so masculine, different from the rest of his features, showing evidence that Yuto was indeed a man and no longer a boy. The more he stared at it, the more he had the need to want to touch it, to nuzzle it against his own face.
Unconsciously, he found himself moving his face closer to Yuto, now breathing in his scent. It was such a nice smell, the smell of grass perhaps? Or was it of the summer air? Whatever it was it smelt nice and Chinen loved it because it was just so Yuto. The collar of Yuto’s white t-shirt had grass stains marking them and that made Chinen think with a smile, ‘You were catching bugs again weren’t you.’
“Uwah!” Yuto yelped making Chinen jolt back into reality.
“Woah, Chinen your face was so close, it startled me! What’s the matter, are you feeling dizzy? My position isn’t comfortable after all for you is it?”
Chinen deeply blushed, embarrassed, he couldn’t let Yuto know what he was thinking or worse, of what he was actually doing.
“Uh...yeah, I’m feeling kind of dizzy, I’m gonna go lie down somewhere.” He replied hastily.
“You want me to take you to the rooms?” Yuto frowned slightly, showing his concerned, kind eyes.
‘Stop this, stop being so nice to me when you don’t get it!’ he thought, “No, it’s nothing, I’m fine, you should study!” he said hurriedly and left.
-End of Flashback-
From that day on Chinen found himself to be dishonest with his feelings, he knew he couldn’t have him even though he was so close but Yuto would never love him that way anyway so it hurt him. What he hated about himself the most was that he found himself excluding Yuto from everything because he didn’t want Yuto to be near anyone else. His philosophy had become, ‘if I can’t have him then nobody can’. It was because of him that Yuto was now more to himself, it just had to be and he blamed himself.
He was beginning to hate himself and he knew the others were getting annoyed with him too. He would cling onto Yamada daily, guilt trip Yamada into only inviting him and not Yuto to certain events. Surprisingly, Yuto was never sad or mad with him, he seemed oblivious. He would reply with a, “Oh! You guys are going to the concert, I’m going this year too, I’m going with Raiya, maybe we’ll bump into you guys.” And then he’d grin, that stupid adorable grin that Chinen loved oh so much, that innocent grin that was unfazed by everything and Chinen would just think, ‘You goddamn idiot.’
He just wanted to be noticed, any kind would’ve been okay, even if Yuto thought of him as a rival he would be pleased because that would mean Yuto would pay more attention to him. He would do things purposefully to annoy him.
Today was the day the issue for the profile interview would arrive at the studio, he had declared his love to Yuto in his birthday wishes hoping to get some kind of reaction from the other boy. In it, he described his plan for their date and had spilled one of his longest daydreams. In truth, he really did want to have a date with the boy on his birthday, it was his wish but he felt it was impossible so he would play it off as a joke if the plan backfired.
The magazine was making its way and he could hear the chatters fill the room from the other members.
“Hey don’t you think Chinen is trying too hard to be cute? It’s really annoying me.” One said.
“Yeah, and he clings onto Yamada all day, oh and did you see what he wrote in his profile, he was flirting to Yuto now, what a brat.”
“He knows he’s pretty so he’s getting full of himself.”
Chinen stood at the crack of the door in the hallway. Deciding it better not to enter he quickly changed directions while he felt his anger build up along with the frustration of his useless effort, unable to contain himself he felt tears well up. It wasn’t fair, they didn’t understand his feelings, now they just thought he was full of himself, he was only joking, what was he supposed to say when they called him cute all the time anyway? Surely arguing would just make the conversation go longer than necessary and plus if he really was so cute than why did the one boy that he liked the most not think it?
Eyes blurred, he bumped hard into the chest of another person. Rubbing his forehead and quickly wiping away his tears he looked up to see the large twinkling eyes of his angel, Yuto, the last person he wanted to see at the moment. Was it really time to get rejected or made fun of, or to be called a flirt by the one he liked the most?
“Hey Chinen, oh your eyes are watering, mine are too, pollen levels are really high these days, you should really wear the mask soon!” he said proudly. For once, Chinen was happy at how stupid Yuto was.
“Hey, Yuto, did you read the profiles that came in?” he was staring at the ground, ‘go ahead make fun of me, say I’m a disgusting flirt like the rest.’ His focus on the ground hardened.
“Ye I did.”
“So?”
“Oh about your profile, haha it was cute! You really want to go out on a date with me, but a date with two boys is kind of...but we should hang out soon, I don’t think we have in a while.”
He looked up at Yuto, not sure of whether he was relieved or not, at the very least Yuto was not disgusted but he wasn’t really flustered either. But better him being his usual self than anything.
“Hey Yuto, do you think I’m cute?” He was serious and embarrassed, how could he ask this, he was mentally kicking his own butt.
“What’s this all of a sudden? Chinen of course you are very cute!” he replied with confidence.
“...are too...”Chinen mumbled.
“What?”
“You are too, I think Yuto, is cute too. C-cuter than me!” He stammered blushing.
Yuto wrinkled his face, “Uhh, me cuter than you is kind of imp...”
“No, Yuto is definitely very very cute!”he said sternly.
He blinked a bit, surprised at how serious Chinen sounded and smiled, somewhat touched.
“Oh..um, ok thanks Chinen. If you think so I’m happy.” He laughed. Both boys then started to slowly chuckle awkwardly until they started to burst out into laughter.
‘I love you, you idiot.’ Chinen thought through his laughter and tears, realizing he thought of ‘love’ rather than ‘like’ he felt his cheeks flush once more.
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A/N: Thank you to all of the readers for your support in the last chapter! Every comment really does help me feel energized to write this story. *Fighting spirit*
For those nakachii followers, if you’ve noticed I’ve incorporated some real life hints into the story. =D
Hope you enjoyed the chapter!