He does not beat his wife... He is diciplining her

[najii]

All I want to do is to have the ability to people. God has giving me the ability to think deeper, to question, to take simple pleasures in life. I want to inspire people to hope/strive/expect better from themselves and others

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[sakuya_baby]

Honey.... are you in a safe place right now? I'm very concerned by this. Are you all right? Do I need to injure someone physically?

[najii]

I would say yes that he needs some physical injuries. I just don't have it in me at the moment my friend stopped me when I had the chance (which was almost kill him). Ironically he says I'm lost and that he is trying to help me and that he loves me to much to let me live in darkness...

If that is love I never want to come across it again and live a life of solitude...

[najii]

Thank you

[angrbooa]

I was in a similar situation.
My boyfriend didn't really talked about god, but about me being a heartless, spineless person with noone on this world to be with other than him. And if a person repeats saying that...there is some chance you might believe in it too.

If you want to exchange experience, let me know.

[najii]

Your not kidding. Just to make it stop I would agree with him. I thank God for Austin. I called him at like 4am and told him to tell me that i'm not a horrible person, that i was meant for better things. Then he made me tell him what happened and calmed me down. If it wasn't for him I don't know where I would be at the moment.

I wouldn't mind sharing experiences with you. You might have a better way in coming to terms with it than i do. i know for a fact that it is still eating away at me. Always lingering in my mind that I'm not good enough... I miss the days when I was a child and nothing bothered me... I was so confident... Reality and being an adult is such a slap in the face

[angrbooa]

Btw, I forgot to mention that he is not my boyfriend anymore. I break up with him because of that.

Yes, I had a great friend to who just said "You can talk to me about it." and I said "I don't need to." Minutes later I was rambling about it...all evening long. Seemed that I needed it after all.

My way of dealing with it is just a result of those things. I had two choices: Let the people break me or not letting the comments come to my heart. Result is that I'm kind of cold and distant to other people and that I have a problem with dealing with my own emotions, because I surpressed them for too long.

Important is, that you should not be around people who say something like that to you. It can break you. And besides...it's crap what he said. Don't listen to him. Some people just want to bring others down to feel better. Screw them.

[najii]

True that!

See, I vented and for the most part got over it. But my problem is that I am in a constant state of pissed off (on the inside at least). Do you have any idea how to release that? ... I really should take up boxing... LoL