Sometimes I don't actually like posting stuff about the lycanthropy publicly but that's what I do, and I believe in it, so . . . apparently I'm going to
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I don't comment much on LJ lately, but I just needed to say that I don't think of you as weak. I'm sorry you're having to deal with so much suckage. *hugs*
Right there with you. Since fall of 2010 I've had to deal with two car accidents, five deaths not even counting my best friend's suicide or my own death, a coma, multiple surgeries, multiple organ failure, physical rehabilitation including relearning how to walk but STILL not getting back my ability to sing, another friend being committed, trying to settle an estate that's 400 miles away, two lawsuits, and PTSD. And that's on top of already being bipolar. I cannot imagine how normal people live their lives and deal with this shit, because normal people DON'T have to deal with this shit. It doesn't snowball the same way, where the least little hiccup completely knocks you off course and just recovering from that first blow takes longer because of the bipolar disorder so that by the time the next thing comes around you're still only barely recovering from the last thing. Frankly, I doubt quite so much happens to normal people either, but that part's just bad luck and there's nothing whatsoever anyone can do about that
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I just recently came back to LJ, so I probably don't know all everything of what's been happening. It sounds like you're burned out. Very, very burned out
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You're doing the best with what you've got and that's all that can be reasonably asked of anyone. I hope you'll be able to come to a measure of peace with that. *hugs*
This, right here: I'm not hopeless, I'm not suicidal at all, but Jesus, I wish I could get away from my life.
I know THAT feeling. Even though I might at first glance be one of these so-called "normal" people you're referring to (get out, there's no such thing). Dude, people who make everything look easy are just good liars. I'm pretty sure that all this having kids and dogs and "normal" jobs stuff is actually quite hard even if you aren't starting from a point of dealing with this shit, as you put it. The fact that you feel like it would break you is more of an indication of your awareness and sensibility than anything else. Because quite frankly I think it does break lots of people, they just don't even bother thinking about it. (Or they have a rough time with it at first and then develop crutches and ways of dealing with it, but that isn't really the point here
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You've said almost exactly what I'd wanted to say in your comment, had I the full wits about me to do so. Especially this line: Dude, people who make everything look easy are just good liars. Oh my gods, quoted for truth.
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I know THAT feeling. Even though I might at first glance be one of these so-called "normal" people you're referring to (get out, there's no such thing). Dude, people who make everything look easy are just good liars. I'm pretty sure that all this having kids and dogs and "normal" jobs stuff is actually quite hard even if you aren't starting from a point of dealing with this shit, as you put it. The fact that you feel like it would break you is more of an indication of your awareness and sensibility than anything else. Because quite frankly I think it does break lots of people, they just don't even bother thinking about it. (Or they have a rough time with it at first and then develop crutches and ways of dealing with it, but that isn't really the point here ( ... )
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