Christmas was really nice, if exhausting. I have pictures of the gifts I made that I will post soon - the painted cat skull, the pirate box, the time machine
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"Actually, that's something that I don't see people talk about in regards to being bipolar or living with depression: the disrupted time sense. Emo-lag? I seem to completely lose the weeks that I'm mixed or really deeply depressed, and my internal clock takes a long time to reset itself. I strongly doubt that's unique to me."
It leaves me not knowing exactly when things happened, or in what order. I lose entire chunks of time, and remember clearly only those events with a strong emotional imprint... and I can't really put those in order on my own, I have to think back to surrounding stuff as best I can and calculate from there.
You know...now that you mention it my normally very accurate time sense does get all twisted up and thrown out of kilter when I'm in the middle of a depressive state. Hadn't really connected the two before now.
Ordinarily, I can decide when I'd like to wake up the night before, and reliably do so within a few minutes. But if I'm in a depressive state, I loose track of what day of the week it is, heck, sometimes I loose even what week! [as in, can't remember if it's the start or end of the month.]
All of which isn't helped by the run of identically grey & dreary days which seems to be the predominant weather pattern for Britain at present. Even the wildlife gets confused as to whether it's spring or autumn when the weather is identical.
Ordinarily, I can decide when I'd like to wake up the night before, and reliably do so within a few minutes. But if I'm in a depressive state, I loose track of what day of the week it is, heck, sometimes I loose even what week!
I'm exactly the same. It's good to know I'm not the only one.
When un-depressed, though, that body clock is a great thing to have.
You've probably heard this before, but those who love you will understand - if not how you're feeling, but that there are demons with which you are dealing - chances are it bothers YOU more than it bothers them.
This is a post about YOU and YOUR problems - but I have to say, as someone who is also bipolar - that there was a spark of recognition when I read your words.
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It leaves me not knowing exactly when things happened, or in what order. I lose entire chunks of time, and remember clearly only those events with a strong emotional imprint... and I can't really put those in order on my own, I have to think back to surrounding stuff as best I can and calculate from there.
Mixed-up weather patterns do not help AT ALL.
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Ordinarily, I can decide when I'd like to wake up the night before, and
reliably do so within a few minutes. But if I'm in a depressive state, I loose track of what day of the week it is, heck, sometimes I loose even what week! [as in, can't remember if it's the start or end of the month.]
All of which isn't helped by the run of identically grey & dreary days which seems to be the predominant weather pattern for Britain at present. Even the wildlife gets confused as to whether it's spring or autumn when the weather is identical.
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do so within a few minutes. But if I'm in a depressive state, I loose track of what day of the week it is, heck, sometimes I loose even what week!
I'm exactly the same. It's good to know I'm not the only one.
When un-depressed, though, that body clock is a great thing to have.
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This is a post about YOU and YOUR problems - but I have to say, as someone who is also bipolar - that there was a spark of recognition when I read your words.
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Six minute kitty video- link please?
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