Oct 09, 2007 04:39
One year, nine months, eight days.
Yet I walk into my childhood home and still expect to see my mother in the hallway.
I'm not sad, it's just . . . does the empty space where you expect them to be ever fill up? Or do we carry around these emptinesses forever, like negative silhouettes inside of us?
depressing,
mother,
grief
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*HUGS* ma'am...
:o.
Dan
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You know the hardest thing for me? I see things when I'm shopping that I know she'd have liked, and I inevitably get excited about it for a split second before I remember. That's the absolute worst. Anyplace with jewelry or neat garden knickknacks is bound to induce some brooding.
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Your heart will always remember them, and you will always be aware that there's a part of you that should be there that isn't, but in time it will change and the emptiness won't be quite so overwhelming. *hugs*
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I think it just sucks all around. I mean, hell, it's not like there's ever a good time for someone to up and die on you.
*hugs*
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Do I miss him? Every time I even think about him. But I'd never wish him back or wish him to go a different time or way."
Wow. Yes. I can see how that would make things so much easier.
My mom's death was made easier by the long period of suffering beforehand; the actual event, when it came, was a relief. Because I'd been saying goodbye and preparing for so long, I think I was able to cope with it a little more effectively than I would've otherwise.
I do think that in some cases, people choose when to go. I know my grandfather died almost exactly a year from the day his wife of decades died. They were very close, and after she passed, he was never the same. I think it hastened hsi decline into sudden senility radically. He'd just lost the will to live.
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