Emptying.

[naamah_darling]

In about twenty minutes I'm going to meet my sister at my grandparents' house. The empty house. We're going through and divide up all the paintings done by my mother and my grandmother. We're going to take the photographs, the childhood artwork, all of that. I'll be photographing and measuring furniture, in case I want it. And it's going to be

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[luckychance]

Grace under Fire is always a hard thing to do. Just do your best and forgive whatever mistakes you may make. It's hard being an adult, but you make it look good.

[naamah_darling]

That's a true compliment. Thank you.

I am pretty sure I've said it, but I do love that icon. And I'm very much feeling that today.

[call_me_deb]

DUDE! The Bog Sucks - take Gollum!

*HUGS*

[naamah_darling]

*cracks up*

Yeah, otherwise I'll end up facefirst in a pool and married to a bog man or something!

[apocalypticbob]

I surely do hope you get to attend the Oklahoma Grand Shindig.

It will be a good occasion to make new adult memories. They will never replace your childhood memories, but they can be things to smile about.

Do I think you are strong? Of course I do. I also think you are vulnerable and beautiful and talented and intelligent, and I think you have all the skills necessary to make it through all the tough times ahead of you. I don't think it will be easy, but life rarely is. I wish I had some neat little sound bite of wisdom...something about how you will come through this stronger and wiser, but the truth is that I don't know that. What I do know is sometimes you have to slog through a lot of shit to get to the good times on the other side.

I hope that you can get through the day with as little pain as possible, and that perhaps you might even be able to find some peace in tying up some of the loose ends.

And you, darling, have far more grace than you know.

*hugs you tight with a big squishy Bob hug*

[naamah_darling]

Sometimes you say what I'm thinking so well. . . .

I'm all right. I'll be all right. I'm just tired. Sooo tired.

I can't vouch that I'll come out of this stronger, but wiser . . . well, I'd have to be deliberately closing myself off not to learn from this in any way, and I'm trying like hell not to do that.

Thank you.

*squishy Naamah hugs*

[aiglet]

I think that sometimes all "being strong" adds up to is being too tired to be anything else.

Grieving takes up a lot of energy, and a certain willingness to *let* yourself hurt about whatever it is, something that I think those of us who think of ourselves as "strong" have a really hard time with.

Please be gentle with yourself, and take the time you need to remember the love that goes with the stuff.

[naamah_darling]

Uhhh.

Wow!

I think you pegged it. Thank you. That's . . . that's perfect. And true. And me.

[apocalypticbob]

Exactly!

You've said it all right there.

[siamesegoth2]

There is a place in all of us where strength lives, it's like a reserve, we draw on it when we need to, how much we draw on is another matter. We take what we need, and sometimes it has to be enough.

Take care today.