Post #2: A revalation
I had a bit of a revalation a few weeks back and I figure I might as well get it down here.
I realized that might life goes in cycles, not to say that the same things happen over and over but certain key things seem to happen again and again in the same order.
a little background to illustrate:
When I got out of the Marines and I came back here to Michigan, I got to see my friend Brandy again and I realized that I still had a bit of a crush on her, we've know eachother since we were 5 and she has always been a great friend.
I knew she only thought of me as a friend, but when you have a crush its hard to get that through your head even when you know its true, because you just keep hoping that there might be a chance.
Well I finally worked up enough courage to tell her how I felt and I was right, I was just a friend, so we both got to feel really ackward for a while, but after a while it was better. But it wasn't till after I had done what I needed to do to know completely that there was nothing there that I would be able to meet anyone new, and I did.
Jennifer, I have yet to love anyone as much as I loved her...
we dated for about a year and half before I proposed to her, and we were engaged for about 8 months before she told me that she no longer loved me.
I was pretty devastated for a while, it took me most of a year to be completely OK again. It was after that year that I started hanging out with Irma, she was a truly wonderful person, smart, caring, and a joy to be around, not to mention pretty. I of course had a crush on her, it only took me about 6 months before I managed to let her know how I felt(it took me more than a year for Brandy), with Irma I wasn't sure that I was just a friend, we were friends, but it really seemed there was the possibility of more.
A couple of months after that I met Amanda, we hit it off right away, we met through our friends who hung out at Dennys and we spent about 8 hours there just talking, and before we went home we exchanged E-mails and over the next week we E-mail eachother a few times then changed over to phone calls and then to an actual date.
It seemed like it was going good when after about 3 months she tells me she can't be in a realtionship right now and that we shouuld just be friends... but we couldn't see eachother or hang out or anything(some friends...)
Well I found out it takes a lot less time to get over a 3 month realtionship than a 2.5 year one... still hurts though...
Twords the end of last year I started hanging out with some new friends, who are some truly great people and one of them is this truly wonderful and incredible woman, she's a great friend and fun to hang out with, she has a great sense of humor, she's also very cute.
I am pretty sure that once again I am 'just a friend'. Sometimes it seems like she is flirting with me, but I think that is just the way she is and its not anything directed at me specifically.
It would be great if for once in my life I could end up dating a woman I have a crush on... but if the way my life has gone is any indication it is not going to happen... but on the bright side if I do end up following the same pattern I should be dating someone wonderful sometime later this year.
I realized that might life goes in cycles, not to say that the same things happen over and over but certain key things seem to happen again and again in the same order.
a little background to illustrate:
When I got out of the Marines and I came back here to Michigan, I got to see my friend Brandy again and I realized that I still had a bit of a crush on her, we've know eachother since we were 5 and she has always been a great friend.
I knew she only thought of me as a friend, but when you have a crush its hard to get that through your head even when you know its true, because you just keep hoping that there might be a chance.
Well I finally worked up enough courage to tell her how I felt and I was right, I was just a friend, so we both got to feel really ackward for a while, but after a while it was better. But it wasn't till after I had done what I needed to do to know completely that there was nothing there that I would be able to meet anyone new, and I did.
Jennifer, I have yet to love anyone as much as I loved her...
we dated for about a year and half before I proposed to her, and we were engaged for about 8 months before she told me that she no longer loved me.
I was pretty devastated for a while, it took me most of a year to be completely OK again. It was after that year that I started hanging out with Irma, she was a truly wonderful person, smart, caring, and a joy to be around, not to mention pretty. I of course had a crush on her, it only took me about 6 months before I managed to let her know how I felt(it took me more than a year for Brandy), with Irma I wasn't sure that I was just a friend, we were friends, but it really seemed there was the possibility of more.
A couple of months after that I met Amanda, we hit it off right away, we met through our friends who hung out at Dennys and we spent about 8 hours there just talking, and before we went home we exchanged E-mails and over the next week we E-mail eachother a few times then changed over to phone calls and then to an actual date.
It seemed like it was going good when after about 3 months she tells me she can't be in a realtionship right now and that we shouuld just be friends... but we couldn't see eachother or hang out or anything(some friends...)
Well I found out it takes a lot less time to get over a 3 month realtionship than a 2.5 year one... still hurts though...
Twords the end of last year I started hanging out with some new friends, who are some truly great people and one of them is this truly wonderful and incredible woman, she's a great friend and fun to hang out with, she has a great sense of humor, she's also very cute.
I am pretty sure that once again I am 'just a friend'. Sometimes it seems like she is flirting with me, but I think that is just the way she is and its not anything directed at me specifically.
It would be great if for once in my life I could end up dating a woman I have a crush on... but if the way my life has gone is any indication it is not going to happen... but on the bright side if I do end up following the same pattern I should be dating someone wonderful sometime later this year.