Easter Joys

[myrgthful]

Happy Easter, everyone!

Steve and Kris did something par-ticularly gracious for today. According to the parenting agreement, Amethyst was scheduled to be with me. But, it turns out, many holidays where I get pre-eminence for parent-time happen to fall on days I'm scheduled to work, and so the reality is that I don't get these days anyway. Our

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[findmagicorange]

[myrgthful]

Oh yes! I'd love to get the box. I'm just catching up with all of the comments. And journal entries. And comments to journal entries, and so forth!

Yes, it's much, much easier to go that way.

Funny thing is, I never used to want to go that way. I wanted to go out in a war, or on a rescue (I spent a little time on Search & Rescue) or something. Anything but growing older and having my abilities taken away from me, one by one. I've come to peace with that process a tiny bit more than I used to be...

[findmagicorange]

I'm totally beat after work today. You're welcome to swing by my apartment and grab them. IM me for location and such. I've actually got five boxes, if you want more than one. But I put special stuff in Amethyst's (and it's not taped, so you can go through it before you give it to her). Yay for being concious of safety.

And I kinda feel the same way, in that I've always felt that I'd rather go young. Then, when I found out about some of the disorders I live with that I don't really mind right now (while they're in the benign stage), I realized that it's better to just live while you live and die when you die and you just make the most of it and don't regret it.

[gigiss]

I've never actually been present at the moment of somebody's passing. I am not sure how I would react to it, and am a bit in awe of your experience - not that you are nonchalant about it at all but because of your recognizance that something actually rather special is occuring, and for your courage and presence of mind to allow it to happen in spite of your knowledge - and Oath...?

I rather think I would be filled with a sense of dreadful panic, and would attempt any exigency I had the presence of mind to apply, in order to preserve that beating heart. I have not yet learned that the instant of death can be a tremendously spiritual blessing.

And there is a tiny part of me that envies you for these glimpses that pierce the veil. Such things, I would suspect, would always make me Think, and fill me with Desire to Be Still Prepared For Death.

[amade]

Glad you had a nice time with your lille one and your ex & co. :) Always nice when people do kind things.

[elamine]

"And anyway, we agreed, it isn't so much about whether you're together when they die, but more important whether you're together when you're alive. Right?"

For years (coming up on seven), I've been really kind of haunted by the fact that none of us were with my dad when he passed. But something about this statement gives me some peace. That, and an alternative phrasing that popped into my mind as I was mulling this over: "...more important whether you're together forever." Which, thanks to proxy sealing, we are and will be. That has been underscored so significantly by Chie's birth, as I've felt my dad close so much more than I had for a very, very long time.

[nilo]

Whoa - this entry brought tears to my eyes. Thank you.

In any case, you are helping me (well, my older daughter, to be particular) in the ask-a-nurse community. So I swung by your LJ and, well, we have enough interests in common - I mean, really, Orson Scott Card???

In any case, thanks for your help and concern with my sweet Emmy and thank you so much for the pleasure you gave me in the reading of this update.