I dont want to admit it, ever..but i'm jealous of my stupid friend who is apparently losing weight *although it doesnt show*. I think it's because she's always thought she was prettier and had more style than me. Maybe she is losing weight but I know I can too. She is just ugly on the inside and judges everyone on how they look. How is it that I can just say that so easily about one of my best friends? Does it make me a bad person?
I love my boyfriend. I watch cute sappy movies and sometimes wish he would say those romantic things to me...like, the EXTREAMLY romantic things.
I'm just insecure. This comment is really long, I know. But I have alot of stuff to write about.
I miss my relationship with my brother. Is it bad that sometimes I wish I never moved out in the first place? I know, it's growing up, and god I really do love the life I have with my boy..but I lost that great relationship with my brother. I just wish he would confide in me again.
I'm so nervous about money right now, and what I want to do in life.
i spend half my life feeling like i'm seperated from everything by something. everything feels once removed, like i'm not experiencing something, i'm observing the experince of something. like what happens to me is lab tests i take notes on. and i've done this to myself. i have spent the last eight years conditioning myself not to feel so much. i don't end up in hospital from suicide attempts anymore, and i barely ever injure myself, but sometimes i wonder if i've fucked it all up. if this is really how you're supposed to live.
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I love my boyfriend. I watch cute sappy movies and sometimes wish he would say those romantic things to me...like, the EXTREAMLY romantic things.
I'm just insecure. This comment is really long, I know. But I have alot of stuff to write about.
I miss my relationship with my brother. Is it bad that sometimes I wish I never moved out in the first place? I know, it's growing up, and god I really do love the life I have with my boy..but I lost that great relationship with my brother. I just wish he would confide in me again.
I'm so nervous about money right now, and what I want to do in life.
Fuck.
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my friends, boys, my family...no one wants to be around me.
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