lights are blinding my eyes
I am so down... I lost my job today, full of fears and pain. Im so scared. Sigh. I am trying to give up alcohol for awhile last nught was awful / a blur. I am losing myself in a haze of alcohol, dance floors and cigarettes. Who is this person i have become. There is vomit on the lapel of my coat from throwing after the bar. There are scratches on ( Read more... )
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don't let yourself get absorbed by all that negativity. you're better than that. you don't need to make yourself a martyr. you haven't done any major wrong. nothting that's unforgivable.
at least not to me.
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You just haven't found your tolerance. Drinking when you're upset is never a good idea...you think it will make you feel better but it really makes you feel worse. You're more likely to have too much and end up a mess when you're already feeling down. I know all this first hand, you just didn't witness many of my finer moments which include losing my glasses and my phone at harpers ferry. I wish that was the stupidest thing I ever did drunk, but it certainly is not even close. I think staying away from alcohol, particularly when you are feeling down, is a good plan. Plus, pretty soon I am not going to be able to support your body weight as I shove you into a cab and order you not to puke until we get home or push/drag you up the stairs :) I'll have to call for reinforcements or something.
<3 Hope that your interview today goes well. I hung up your extra dress shirt but maybe I'll do laundry and wash it.
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