I know exactly how you feel. Though part of my problem is the damn rare sleep disorder since birth - school was damned hard, and got real low grades until the final year and i managed to revise and basically teach myself at home from scratch i got all high to mids with a few lows. I was really disappointed by my low grade in maths because i tried my hardest with that :(
I, like you, come up with all these really good ideas i should do and i start off with resolute determination and commitment, and then get distracted and quit to start something else. It's a really annoying habit lol. Besides my high school certificate thingie, i don't have any other qualifications. The only thing i have managed to complete that i was real proud about was my novel. It's long, but i wrote it and didn't give up.
I want some better qualifications and a better job. I want my future children to be proud of me and when at school anyone asks what their mother does for a job, they can say she's an evening teacher in philosophy and an author. I want to publish
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Well- you at least finished your novel. You should use that as a starting point, knowing that you've done that. Remind yourself often that if you could finish a novel you could finish whatever else in your life you put your mind to.
I hope that we are designed to push others AND push ourselves! We cannot let the fact that we haven't finished things before drive us to not finish things in the future. We must use that as our driving force.
It sounds like you have the drive and the potential to do really well but you haven't had the focus. School takes a lot of time and effort! Do you have a goal in mind, a dream you're trying to achieve, a dream career that you want? Keep all that in mind to motivate you to keep moving forward. You can do it!
One of the things that helped push me so much in the first two classes and part of the reason I am SO disappointed with the last two is that there is a Communications national honor society. I really want to get into that...
Thanks for the push! I feel our friendship will be good for my school goals. :D
Aw! That's so sweet. I'm glad you like it. Every time I start a post I think "Good god, no one is going to want to read that!" But I hate posting just vague stuff, I like to give people the whole story, because then I feel like it opens it all up for dialog. I'm here because I need to be open somewhere, I often need advice, and I'm trying to work out a lot of things within myself. I can't ask for help with that if I say
"Gah...I suck in school" and nothing else. I want to have a conversation...not just random positive comments. Sometimes I want those negative comments that are actually going to make me think about my choices and my life, so I can be a better person.
I like reading the whole story, so I'm glad you post it all. I'm one of those people who, when I'm reading a book or watching a movie, or heck, even writingthe darn story, I hate endings because I always want to know what happens next.
School takes an incredible amount of focus and determination. I went to college right after high school, married partway through my first year, got pregnant, took a semester off, and then went back to school when my son was four months old. My husband worked nights, I worked part-time second shift, and was enrolled full-time at my local community college. The first two semesters I took online classes, but the last semester I had to do all my classes on campus because there was just no other way. I loved school and I excelled at it; I'd love to continue my education, but now I have three other kids, a different husband, and a better job. I don't know if or when school will be feasible for me, but a girl can dream. In the meantime, I hope you enjoy it! :)
You have a very interesting journal, and I look forward to knowing more about you through your LJ.
That being said before college I did not apply myself very much. I went to a private school, and just the fact that I had been in that school for over 12 years looking at the same people really bothered me. I just wanted out, and didn't care what college I ended up at.
In college I was put on academic probation once and eventually I had to switch majors because I didn't apply myself, and instead partied, played the video game Halo, and did pretty much everything except study. And I ended up okay, I think.
Just get back on that horse and try to raise that GPA. You should be just peachy after that.
First- Thanks a ton! I hope we can become fast friends.
Second- Thank you for your encouragement. I was chatting with my older sister this morning and since my failed class grade will be replaced by whatever grade I get when I finish it the second time, I'll only have the one D in there. I'm not good at math, but the way I figure it 3 4.0's and 1 low grade would hopefully put me back up into a 3.something GPA. After that...it's only up up and away! :D
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I, like you, come up with all these really good ideas i should do and i start off with resolute determination and commitment, and then get distracted and quit to start something else. It's a really annoying habit lol. Besides my high school certificate thingie, i don't have any other qualifications. The only thing i have managed to complete that i was real proud about was my novel. It's long, but i wrote it and didn't give up.
I want some better qualifications and a better job. I want my future children to be proud of me and when at school anyone asks what their mother does for a job, they can say she's an evening teacher in philosophy and an author. I want to publish ( ... )
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I hope that we are designed to push others AND push ourselves! We cannot let the fact that we haven't finished things before drive us to not finish things in the future. We must use that as our driving force.
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Thanks for the push! I feel our friendship will be good for my school goals. :D
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Im so glad that I met you.
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"Gah...I suck in school" and nothing else. I want to have a conversation...not just random positive comments. Sometimes I want those negative comments that are actually going to make me think about my choices and my life, so I can be a better person.
I am glad I met you too! :D
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School takes an incredible amount of focus and determination. I went to college right after high school, married partway through my first year, got pregnant, took a semester off, and then went back to school when my son was four months old. My husband worked nights, I worked part-time second shift, and was enrolled full-time at my local community college. The first two semesters I took online classes, but the last semester I had to do all my classes on campus because there was just no other way. I loved school and I excelled at it; I'd love to continue my education, but now I have three other kids, a different husband, and a better job. I don't know if or when school will be feasible for me, but a girl can dream. In the meantime, I hope you enjoy it! :)
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That being said before college I did not apply myself very much. I went to a private school, and just the fact that I had been in that school for over 12 years looking at the same people really bothered me. I just wanted out, and didn't care what college I ended up at.
In college I was put on academic probation once and eventually I had to switch majors because I didn't apply myself, and instead partied, played the video game Halo, and did pretty much everything except study. And I ended up okay, I think.
Just get back on that horse and try to raise that GPA. You should be just peachy after that.
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Second- Thank you for your encouragement. I was chatting with my older sister this morning and since my failed class grade will be replaced by whatever grade I get when I finish it the second time, I'll only have the one D in there. I'm not good at math, but the way I figure it 3 4.0's and 1 low grade would hopefully put me back up into a 3.something GPA. After that...it's only up up and away! :D
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