fic: Suicidal in the Morning (Supernatural; Dean and Sam; pg)

[musesfool]

Suicidal in the Morning
Supernatural; Sam and Dean; pg; vague spoilers through 5.12; 1,450 words
Five ways Dean Winchester has thought of killing himself.

Thanks to angelgazing for looking it over.

Comments

[giandujakiss]

This is just heartbreaking.

[musesfool]

Thank you! That's what I was aiming for.

[lonelywalker]

{{{Dean}}}

I do love that he seemingly cares more for the Impala than for himself... And that, fortunately, he has enough things, good and bad, to pull him back every time.

[musesfool]

Thanks so much! I'm so happy it worked for you. And yeah, he's got enough going on that he was able to come up with reasons not to do it.

[kita0610]

Man, I don't even *like* Dean and this is owie.

Well done.

[musesfool]

Thank you!

[little_missmimi]

Oh, this is so hurty.

[musesfool]

Thank you!

[zillah975]

I love this. One thing I love about it is how utterly matter-of-fact it is. I wonder how come I don't feel achy about it like other readers do. I mean, it's not that I've ever considered suicide, I haven't, but I've thought about it, I've had that impulse -- to drive into traffic or off a cliff, mostly. And there are all kinds of reasons I don't do it and would never do it, but maybe that's why? The story feels familiar and real to me in a way that a more angsty version wouldn't.

And, I mean, he doesn't do it, which makes it a lot less heartbreaking, to me -- I mean, I get why he doesn't. All those reasons are good ones, insofar as they're reasons. I mean sure, it'd be nice if he had a life where he never got so tired that he felt like wouldn't it be nice if it all just stopped, but ... I don't know, does anyone get that life? But the point (to me) is that he doesn't do it. And also, I mean, maybe this is me being someone who's never seriously considered killing herself, but...if Dean were actually suicidal, it kind of seems to me

[tifaching]

I totally agree with you. He thinks about it and thinks about it and ALWAYS comes up with a reason not to. A lot of people think about suicide when things get tough and it's not the weak ones that don't follow through. It's the strong ones that come up with reason after reason not to. My favorite was the Impala. The only thing in his life that never let him down and if he went he wasn't taking her down with him.

[musesfool]

Thank you. I'm so happy it worked for you.

[izhilzha]

Yes, this. Reminds me very much of a guy I used to know, actually, whom I know considered suicide. But I was never afraid he would actually do it, because he had good reasons not to and he knew all of them and held onto them with amazing strength.