and there i go jumping before the gunshot has gone off

[musesfool]

More randomosity, so again with the post in list form. Buckle up - it's a long one:

+ I am on vacation! Today and tomorrow at least! Envy me! I was afraid, all day at work yesterday, that something would happen and I wouldn't be able to be out, but nothing did, and so here I am. I did some much needed grocery shopping this morning - well, mostly

Comments

[storydivagirl]

I'm with you on the "I love you thing", especially with Sam/Dean. I think it's because first Dean is so not the guy comfortable with emotional declarations, much more interested in actions. But also, it sometimes will take me out of the moment. Because I think in every episode Sam and Dean are saying "I love you more than anything" in various ways without ever uttering it. And I'm a fan of that much more personally. And I say that as a girl who loves her schmoop like whoa.

[musesfool]

Yeah, I just don't hear them saying it to each other that explicitly. Like, Coach and Mrs. Coach, or Alexander and Hephaistion? Okay. Yes. They do it in canon. But Dean and Sam? Not so much. And I guess I just don't really get the need for it? Because Dean pretty much says it with everything he does, and Sam's finally learned how to hear him, and is learning to say it back in a way Dean will understand and accept, and I honestly don't think it includes actually *saying* the words.

[amberlynne]

You are so good to me. I am pretty much spoiled for the big thing and all the "Oh, Dean" of it but I appreciate that anyway.

Unless you are just trying to guilt me into watching it. :P

[musesfool]

Ah, I didn't realize you were spoiled. I figure I'll keep cutting for AHBL2 spoilers until the s3 premiere. I mean, I cut Serenity spoilers for nearly two years for some reason I still haven't figured out.

[soupytwist]

I have never really got the whole obsession over Saying 'I Love You'. I suspect this means I fail as a girl; I somehow can't see that as a bad thing.

I love FNL but I have trouble watching it because it's so painfully like watching someone you love in an abusive relationship, except this time it's a town in an abusive relationship with american football and there are lots of characters I like getting hurt. Damn.

[musesfool]

Heh. I'm not so sure it means we fail at being girls so much as the characters do? Which, given that they are not girls? Is a good thing.

I love FNL but I have trouble watching it because it's so painfully like watching someone you love in an abusive relationship, except this time it's a town in an abusive relationship with american football and there are lots of characters I like getting hurt

Yes! That's a great way to look at it. Football can be a good thing, a positive force in these people's lives, but the culture surrounding it has made it not be, because it's not allowed to be what it is - a game played for enjoyment - and instead built up into the end-all and be-all. And so a good thing is twisted, and hurts everyone who comes into contact with it.

Possibly that's why I have such a deep visceral reaction to the show that I have rarely had to anything else on a regular basis.

[soupytwist]

You may well be right. ;)

God, 'visceral' is so right. I keep having to stop watching or my cringing just gets in the way of even seeing what's going on - I want to watch through my hands. Every time I keep wanting to write rambly posts about how it's just like when you're friend's ringing you up to talk about her awful relationship except she keeps insisting on talking about how great it is, repeating the same few good things again and again like that makes up for anything, and she doesn't see that's what she's doing at all and you keep wanting to just not answer the phone when it's her because you love her but just can't stand watching the badness any more and it's going to take so. much. therapy. to get out of it and she hasn't even got to the point where she can cry about it yet and argh.

Which I think is partly the amazing direction - it looks and feels like a documentary, like it's real. (Probably the whole improving-half-of-it thing helps there too.) It's visceral in the same way life is, and I'm coming from just about the

[musesfool]

Yeah, the documentary feel is partly what gives it that immediacy, the fading into and out of conversations, the appearance that this is all just caught on tape rather than specifically, artificially filmed.

[ella_menno]

Um, I don't suppose the world really needs girl!Sam/Jess girlslash, does it? *bites lip*

As a confirmed non-reader of femmeslash of any kind, please allow me to offer my opinion:

OMG yes pls you'll be posting this soon rite??!@?

*coughs* Well, then. I'll be going.

[musesfool]

Hee! I am thinking about it. And not just 'cause it would be hot. *cough*

[iamstealthyone]

I'll wholeheartedly second your "Mockingbird" rec. Awesome story. I, too, adored Dean and Birdie's relationship, and all the OCs were wonderfully crafted.

Hope you enjoy the rest of your vacation!

[musesfool]

It was a fabulous story. *g*

Thanks! I hope to.